~CherrY QinG`s BloG~

新的一年。。新的希望。。

2012-01-22T00:49:00.000+08:00

千万种的心情奇袭今日。。
为了新年而做足准备的我，我成功地忙完了打扫工作。。
昨夜，我还做了美甲，超爱的 <3
也不知道为什么今年的我特别地想大肆地放纵自己。。可能是因为之后要考试和工作吧。。
今天。。聊到了人生的哲学。。
也聊到了爱情和友情。。
我的人生开始变得很沉闷，并不是没有多姿多彩，而是比别人的还来得普通更普通。。
可能因为大家多数是双人关系，而那些并不是双人关系的，就不会联想到我，因为他们。。就是变成你觉得他会叫我，而他也觉得你会叫我，结果呢，往往我就是被放弃的那个。。
在新的一年到来时，我想谢谢几个人。。
因为。。没有他们，或许我天天过的是自己的生活。。
我希望在新的一年里。。你们多开心。。
璇。。我曾说过这世界的人都走光了，你依旧是那个永远和我一起奋斗的女人。。这个学期，的确我们都忽略了彼此，但我依旧相信你会体谅我，因为有些东西，我不必说，你也明白。。
旭红和佳艺，请不要在抱怨我没有和你们喝茶，因为我真的是在忙。。如果你们认为还是我的问题，那我也没办法了，有时我也会忍不住生气，我知道你们那种心情，我明白，但因为我会去的时间也很短，我希望多陪陪家人，我也希望陪你们，但往往就是事与愿违。。有时或许语气不好，我并不需要你们体谅，因为至少我知道我也有错，新年，我希望你们开开心心的。。
ling。。新一年要加加油。。我知道，我的脾气是让人最不能理解的，我也知道我很小心眼，也知道我很依赖你，希望你不要嫌弃我，我有时也会对你发脾气。。所以现在开始，你要时时刻刻提醒我。。
bi。。心底的话我们有时不说并不代表不知道，我很谢谢你不生气我没尽责。。我希望你快快考到执照，载我出去hiao~~还有工作加油~~
或许有时该说我要求的我做不到，我要的我却争取不到。。
新的一年，我只是希望可以的话，我可以做到自己想要的。。
我要改变自己的态度，改变自己的脾气，提升自己。。努力地向前跑。。
我希望我可以要到想要的。。
我要实现我的承诺。。

爱情里。。我想说的是。。有就有，没有就没有。。
我不想再去期待，因为我也会累。。
当我以为爱情来临时，原来他并没有跨过那门槛，而我又得看着它溜走，那种心情。。
幸福，当看到别人在一起时好像很容易，但在我身上，我却看不到那种燃起的希望。。
我要的也许并不是一般人给得到的。。
那天，有个人说：你会想拍个人专辑吗？
我：不想，我如果有你那样我会考虑。。
他：可是你以后可以给孩子看。。
我：我是可能不结婚的，所以哪来的孩子。。
其实，我根本好像没结婚的打算，我的计划里好像都只有工作和生活。。
也不知道为什么。。
而且有人最近也为了爱情在烦恼，我又想想为什么走在一起后依然有那么多问题，还没在一起之前不是已经了解彼此了吗。。我不懂。。
就让成为一个谜吧。。

大家~新年快乐哦~~

For the end of 2011 and the cuming of 2012..

2011-12-25T01:42:00.000+08:00

Well..first n foremost..

let me wish all my frens~~

M3rrY ChristMa$~~

Today is the Christmas..

Yet, where am i now??

haha..i am in my beloved home..Muar-ing~~

but..i am sorry to say tat i am unable to have the gathering with u guys....

(since the time for me to be at muar is very short..unless..u cum to my house..and we sit and chit chat there)

It might be the last post for my 2011..as in the cuming days..i might be going to crazy on my assignments again..and also my course training which is occurring on February to May.. and the date..make me feel a bit headache n bored..

But since it is going to 21..i also dun intend to have any celebrations..since last year..i had it with my family members..To me, a celebration is ntg..wat i wan is jus a simple msg..or a simple wish is enuf..well..i decide to hide myself up for this year~~

my exam end on 17th February if there is no any accidents..but if there is any changes..my exam might end on 18 and my training start on 20~~how lucky am i..gonna to be away from muar for almost 1 months after the new year..lol~~but i might go bek to muar also..*wondering*

when i bek for today..i got wat i wan~~

the tang yuan tat i miss..from my beloved nya nya..^^

I am so happy today..

n without stopping on talking with nya nya~~

haha..i m happy with she around..as recently i m really too busy with my own stuff..

until sumtime when she called, we also end our call in a few minutes..

<3 home sweet home <3

Before ending~~

Happy bufday to See Rou~~hope u ar safe and happy~~

Happy Tong Zhi & Merry Xmas..

2011-12-25T01:35:00.000+08:00

冬至快乐。。
我明天才能回家享受nyanya的汤圆。。
我今天吃了weiling煮的姜汤圆。。和偷偷地吃了某些‘夫妇’的汤圆。。
热热的汤圆。。让我想起我真的好像很久没有回家了。。
考试读书功课。。我的妈呀。。快忙死我了。。
想念nyanya煮的菜。。

过几天，圣诞节也就接着来了。。
圣诞。。处处都看到美丽的圣诞树和圣诞气氛。。
我今年的圣诞节又会怎样过呢？？
睡觉？？
出去？？
还是去找朋友？？
我自己也不知道。。因为我怕我是回去马六甲了。。
所以。。自己也不确定。。
虽然我那天接到了一个派对邀请，我依然在想着，因为我都不确定我有在麻坡。。
weising。。对不起呀。。我可能不能和你一起庆祝，但希望你生日快乐~~

天气和心情。。

2011-12-19T12:07:00.000+08:00

下雨天的时候，有些人的心情会大大受影响，因为他们不喜欢雨天；对于我，我喜欢雨天，因为高热量的我会觉得很温暖，雨天的我喜欢赖在床，赖在家里，如果在雨天出门，地上的雨水会随着步伐，溅起朵朵的小雨水。。

我讨厌大大的阳光照在自己的头上，可能对于别人，太阳象征着天天的希望，所以会非常地喜欢它。。但对于我，我有时很怕，因为上课时，走过太阳，汗水就不停地流下，所以有时我宁愿躲在电脑房里一整天，过过打打游戏的日子。。

最喜欢的天气是晴天，因为我的心情天天都不是晴天，所以我很向往当我的心情只有是晴天的日子，我坚信那是多么无忧无虑的。。我天生就是懒惰鬼，只是喜欢那种让自己能忙里偷闲的日子。。因为我就是头脑简单，四肢也不怎么发达，但只要是自己要的，就会想去得到。。

人的心情有些能控制得很好，有些却很能表达出来。。
我就是两者都不是，因为我控制不好我的脾气，也不会轻易表达出来。。
我的心情能因为一件事情而改变许多。。
因为
我就这样。。
有时我恨我自己那样做，但从别的角度想，我知道的是我必须那样做，我别无选择。。

只有自己的世界。。

2011-12-16T10:33:00.047+08:00

不知道为什么我开始觉得我的世界好像已经被遗弃了。。

或许该说是我被世界遗弃了。。

最近的我很不开心，我的世界又好像开始变成灰色的了。。
因为可能是我没有领导能力，或者做功课上比较差点。。
我以为这个世界有这样的人，讨厌你的人会是一回事，做功课又是另外一回事，但经过某一些事情，我认真地知道。。这个世界这样存在的人很少。。
时间不是问题，问题在于态度上，没有了态度，你所做的都是白费的。。
当你很努力地去完成一个你很想努力完成的东西时，但你的partner却对你不理不睬。。
那种感觉就如同你死你活都不管我的事，久了，也会累的，也会开始不管事。。
或许我的依赖，开始让别人觉得那是负担。。

我的依赖，是不能存在的，因为。。
总是依赖着别人，朋友，家人。。

就是造成我永远不长大不成熟的原因。。

人啊。。要学会很自立。。

并不是朋友家人不能依靠，而是大家各自都有自己的依靠，自己的归属，我不再是他们的范围里的事情了，因为他们开始拥有了完完全全是属于他们的新世界。。

我还没找到，但我从以前到现在却有个认知，我应该很难找得到。。
因为我注定是一个漂泊的人。。

《那些年，我们一起追过的女孩》

2011-11-24T13:04:00.003+08:00

《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》

大家都在追着看着这部戏。。
全马只有几间电影院上映。。
看完后，我突然就觉得。。
这个故事。。
是续《小孩不笨2》后，第二部让我由心感触的一部戏。。

感情世界，对于我。。
不是陌生。。
但，
也不是不熟悉了。。
那天，看到朋友share的一句话。。
不管是女人或男人，当主动久了他也会感到很累，在乎久了会崩溃，并不关爱与不爱。。
这一句话，在我看完这部戏后，就这样浮现在我脑海中。。
或许我经历后，我也累了。。
不是每段感情是100%。。
但我知道。。
回忆却是100% 。。
就如同戏里的那句话。。
或许他们在平行时空是在一起的。。

没有在一起并不代表会遗憾。。
没有在一起并不代表会伤心。。
如果当你看到你N年前追到很辛苦，却没有追到的他/她今天是幸福的。。

那刻，你就应该为他/她感到开心，因为。。
爱他/她就是要他/她幸福。。
试问如果和你在一起，他/她其实一点都不开心。。
那你就该想想。。
是时候更加更好地去对待他/她，让他/她更开心。。
不然就请你放开你的双手，让他/她离开，去寻找真正属于他/她的另一片天堂。。

2011年11月11日。。不想过~~

2011-11-11T18:20:00.001+08:00

今天。。
应该是很开心的。。
结果。。
我咳得更加地。。激烈。。
今天的我可以是说。。完全没有声音。。
连想吃东西的心情也没有。。

也许是因为，
吞不下吧。。
*T^T*
*无助*
*无奈*
*生气*
*火爆*

原本该是一天很完美的日子，今天被喻为光混日，也就是单身日。。
情侣间手牵手散散步，讲讲话，只是粘着他/她过完这一天。。
我觉得这也象征一样东西，就是，这世界，你就是我的唯一，那个长长久久的唯一。。

没情侣的朋友，也可以找个他/她，静静地牵着手，不接吻，不上床，只是一起吃个饭或看电影，也或许可以一起完成一件彼此想做的愿望，然后等待12点的来临，牵着彼此的手，当12点到时，双手合十许个愿望，静静地又放开彼此的手。。

如果对方对你有意思，他会在你放手后，牵回你的手，因为他知道你就是他的那个唯一。。
希望有情人终成眷属。。
也希望其他伴侣间珍惜今天活在你眼前的那个他/她。。

a short blogging at sku lab~~

2011-10-28T15:02:00.000+08:00

the place i am staying now is the university penta lab..
wat i could i say is i am nt happy with the mmu system..
haiz..just want to add on one subject but make me walk from the FBLR to FOSEE.
from FOSEE to STAD, then i went to ERU again..
i would really like to shout it out loudly..could u all make my life simple..why don't u tel me that i could no need to walk so many places, just get the signature from the lecturer and get on to the FBLR to register the subject and send the yellow form to the ERU..suck..
well..forget this..i don't want to talk so much on such tins..

yesterday nite, i went out to limteh with my the other 3 hsemt..we yamcha til almost 3am..
we talked lots on different kinds of topics..
tis make me feel sumtg amazing which is..
a good fren is the one who will acc u when u are alone..
i really need such frens..do not ever tin on giv me up when i am feeling down..
especially 2 people..that i would like to say:
with u there..i really happy and i am willing to share all the things with u..
not for once..but for the whole life..
well, who are they..
i would like to keep it as a secret..
but i think..they will know it when they saw this..

一年过去了。。

2011-10-24T12:32:00.001+08:00

#let the time waste it..#
我不知道这个人会不会看到我今天写的这一篇~~
因为大家，我还是放下重来过。。
快要一年了。。
我不记得我几时放下，但我记得的是2010年11月尾。。
时间过去了，我也放下了，每个人也忘了。。
这段日子，熬得不容易，就因如此，我对爱情的态度又有新的观念。。
简单来说，我累了，我不想再谈那种不再适合我的爱情，也开始对爱情有新的领悟。。
今年的10月，我很庆幸，因为我没有时间去胡思乱想，没有时间去探讨太多的问题。。
很恰巧，10月8日，是我表姐纳彩的那天。。
我的情绪控制得很好，我不再半夜睡不着，也不再夜里吓醒过来。。
但在这阵子，我唯一控制不到的是，我的喜怒哀乐，我不再大喜大忧，也不再懂得表达。。
这阵子的我，只是想静静地面对一切，只想静静地过完大学生活。。

甚至有时连一句解释都不想解释，是因为。。我开始知道一件事。。

真正了解懂我的，我不用解释他也会明白。。

我不用说我爱你，他也知道我对他的特别。。

我不用说对不起，他也知道我已经很抱歉。。

我不用说谢谢你，他也知道我对他很感谢。。

因为我不是每个人都能讲得很开，说得很多，也不是每个人玩得很疯。。

所以我宁愿安安静静的。。待在一个我觉得舒服的地方看看书，听听歌，写写字。。

我知道人有时限，没有人知道自己的时限是几时，也没有人会懂下一秒会发生什么。。

所以我现在只能做的是珍惜我想要的，不再要求不适合我的。。

一切随缘。。

一个女人和一个男人。。

2011-09-25T18:30:00.001+08:00

一个女人真的要拥有一个男人，那他的人生才算完美的吗？

这句话。。

是我在我的课本上看到的，可能是我上课无聊时写的吧。。

对于单身主义强的人来说，他们的答案绝对是不是的；

但对于想结婚想疯了的女人来说，他们的答案是是的。

而我呢？

我是属于两者之间的。。

我想要一个爱人，但却要一个够了解我的男人，一个能时时保护我的男人,因为我自己太明白自己，选一个我爱的，那我宁愿要一个你爱我多过我爱你的人，因为现在的我只是想要被保护，每当一次两次三次成为被伤害的那方，你就会默默地开始选择不再是开口说想谈恋爱的那个人，即时我真的很想，但是我知道，当我阵阵想念爱情气息的时间一过，我就会恢复原来了。。

我要的，都只是奢望的，因为那是一个普通男人给不起的。。爱情和面包。。

我知道的，没有一个人是完美的，因为再完美的人也不会是爱情里完美的人。。

大家都好像心中有个人能思念一样。。

我却想不出来当我想念的时候又有谁能让我想念（除了家人以外的人）。。

when we start to register....

2011-09-13T12:06:00.000+08:00

€verytime, when we start to register for the next sem..such tins will happen..but tis time..the mmu system is getting worse and worse..clicking thousand of F5 since 8,30 am......MMU, are u kidding with us?
What if those student who are in hurry to get their timetable as if they want to go to work or if they got to go for the ptptn in this morning? Could u have some sense for it??

this is what are shown when i was registering for the 1st day..
and..
as for the 2nd day..
it was better than the 1st day..
it was loading in the 1st page, which is the page that we want to log in..
it is really.. ridiculous..and..silly..

i had been wake up at 8.30am for 3 days..just to do the registration..zzzz
could the staff of mmu change the style of working??
well, if u do not want to change ur style..or could u not just simply give us the timetable that is not same when we are doing the registration~~
haiz..MMU..pls change into an advanced and high-tech system..don't use the lousy system anymore~~

承诺的一辈子

2011-09-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

世界上没有绝对的永远，在承诺给别人要的一辈子时，请你想想你就真的能给他你所谓的幸福吗？？我说过，手中能握着的幸福能维持多久我不知道，但我自己知道的是，没有努力，没有忍让，没有了解，就没有所谓的未来。。
如果一切重来，我相信大家还是会选择一样的人生，因为大家都懂，日子再苦，在那苦涩中，你也会感觉到有甜蜜的时候，也会有幸福的时候。。
笔于 2011年9月7号

不管是恋人，友人，亲人，还是无关痛痒的两人，大家的生命里必定会经过这些酸甜苦辣。。
或许我比较想做那种不一样的人，所以我的思想比较不是每个人能接受的。。
我的世界充满着矛盾。。当你的希望多次变成失望时，你就明白什么是不再期望，因为当你连期望的心情也不再有时，你就不会觉得那是一种失望，或许那会变成你不一样的惊喜也不一定，时间的消逝，我不想再去试，也不想再去想，因为我的人生里有的不再是希望，而是现实，是比别人来得更残酷的现实。。
当我学会接受现实，学会接受什么是没有选择时，我就告诉自己我要的幸福很自私，不是每个人都能给得起。。
我知道有些时候我走得很辛苦，但我知道我也有那一点点累积起来的幸福~~

黑白的世界

2011-09-07T00:50:00.000+08:00

开始让我的世界变得很冷漠很安静，是黑白的世界。。
是时候逼自己收拾心情，把一切的一切放下，专注于即将来临的考试。。
世界的残酷，让我开始越变越现实，开始伤害周遭的人。。
或许是不经意的，但我还是变了，变得我都认不出镜子里的自己到底是谁了。。
开始逃避，开始原本不属于自己的生活。。
伪装，是我的武器，是最善用的，但也是最杀伤力。。
恨是我开始伪装自己的方式，因为不再有爱。。
伤害一而再再而三的提起、重复着，那不直接的痛。。
或许承受的不是你，但我会学会保护自己，我会宁愿在伤害发生前，开始学会远离你。。
因为我胆小、懦弱、没有自信。。
只要我觉得我办不到、做不到，我就会选择放弃，那怕已经是很多年的努力。。

最近发生很多事情，是大家都不察觉，但却让我很难过的事。。
学业和友情，是始作俑者。。
时间。。再多久都好，我知道自己已经在崩溃边缘了。。
我记得我自己经常对别人说的一句话：这个世界不会因为谁没有了谁而停止不动。。
我觉得或许当大家的生命里没有我以后，也不会少点什么，不是因为我不重要，而是因为我是你生命中的过客，是你想留，我也是留不住的过客。。

holiday mission 1~~

2011-08-30T01:50:00.000+08:00

my holiday..nt yet start..but nw, i am having one week time to b at muar..but only available on morning or afternoon..and if for nite..i am available on thurs and fri only..i am missing every fren nw..but every holiday that i have is totally different from them..haiz..sienz..
let me start with my 1st mission at the start of the holiday..
but .......
firstly, i need to say..i am sorry that i was unable to attend the gathering that hold by yongmay and kheng..i am truly sorry but if in my real schedule..i suppose to be at mlc not in muar for tis week and next week..but bcus of the raya, i am bek to muar..if u both see tis, i hope u all dun mind..

and as i was only present to the bbQ nite at raymond's house with my 1314 sohai gang..who they are cuming to muar for 3 days 2 nights..
(P/S: the photo are not tat ready..but i can only show one or two pictures for the preparation of the foods~~)

Raymond driving..

The 1st time sat at Raymond's car..

secretly took tis photo at the behind of the car..

he is driving rat, shin and me went to eat cha kuey diao and brought all the things that we nid for that nite~~

Let me show you another photo when we were preparing the foods..

the best man in our gang..with Ray's mum at the kitchen..

Rat..was helping to cut all the foods....

Specially for 38 z(_)(_) po,
pls see how ur man was doing the job..
i, who is a ger, also very shameful on tat.....i am watching at him and took photo on tat~~
=.='''''' you are really blissful, babe~~

i am truly have a fun time with u all, maybe i was too stressful for a few days with those assignment..
waiting for jenny to upload all the photos..^^
time for sleep..as i am sleepy now..

习惯就好。。

2011-08-16T20:07:00.000+08:00

如果习惯就好，我的一生应该都会习惯就好。。
因为我有时太依赖人，有时太爱支配人，所以，我变成有种个性是太霸道，太执着。。
当看到别人的态度是和自己差异很大的时候，就会觉得开始有点差异。。
你说我孤僻，太宅，太霸道，还是太无理取闹时，我只能说这是事实。。
最近心情很不好，也有一些事是我生气了却说不出口的事情，不是对人，如果我对事，我也觉得是我想太多，还是我已经习惯跟着这种方式的生活。。
说出口的话，会让大家觉得我好像在说他们，但其实，我只是有时不能接受那种态度，并不是觉得你们有错，或许我不该把我的标准放在别人的身上，最起码我学着去接受。。
haiz~~ 可能我比较笨，脾气比较坏，所以和别人的做事方式差异非常大。。
最近真的，他X的心情不好。。pekcek。。。。。。。。。

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2月19日生日的我~~

2011-08-08T03:12:00.000+08:00

2月19日生日的人 <3 <3

- 个性坚强，富有决心，喜欢不断创新和开拓

- 企图心强，精力旺盛，好奇心重，喜欢冒险和挑战

优点：- 大胆，果断，具有丰富的想象力和创造力

缺点：- 性急，情绪难以控制

- 不断鞭策自己，丝毫不放松

我做功课做得好累了，就看到这个~~

总觉得这些说的很对，但是不断创新和开拓嘛。。可能有点。。不对。。。。。。

缺点却说得很对，优点嘛。。有点不怎么对。。哈哈哈哈。。

觉得有点道理，也有点不对。。

我觉得一个人的好坏能从别人与你对话时的表情知道，那你就会知道你到底是怎样的人~~

我今年的七夕情人节，虽然没有情人，也没有想念的人，但是我却有ling钓给我的winnie the pooh~~ 哈哈，我很开心。。很有纪念价值~~

事情的来源~~

下午，在house of gifts,

我：那只winnie pooh 几可爱，要明年才可以买，rm12.90..很贵~~

ling：38。。哪里要酱久。。

晚上，在new jusco，

我，ling 和junshyang决定试试玩那个抓玩具机~~

结果不到五分钟的时间，ling用了rm1就拿到了一只winnie pooh。。第一次耶~~~

虽然我没有玩，我却是最开心那个，因为这是一份意外的礼物。。哈哈哈哈。。

过后我们想钓第二只的，可是钓不到，就算了~~

隔天，吃完早餐，我们再去一次，我用rm2 钓了另外一只给ling~~

很有成就感。。我终于领悟到了那个感觉^^

而且很开心，因为。。。。

我和ling。。有同样的winnie pooh~~（虽然是我最喜欢,ling不怎么喜欢也不怎么讨厌)

七夕情人节，

没有情人，

却有着你的礼物进入梦乡，

收拾心情，

收拾回忆，

新的我，

准备踏上新的旅程，

寻找新的回忆，

新的开始~~

Award from SomeOnE~~

2011-07-15T02:01:00.001+08:00

RULES

1. Say thank you to someone who give you this award

2. Write about someone who give you this award

3. Write about yourself

4. Give this award to your 9 blogger-friends

I am Zy3e..with the different kinds of names in life..and what to say le..ErM..from where to write about myself..to me, i just can say..i want a easy and simple life, not that hectic or busy..but not too plain..am i giving you all a very weird thinking..? Moreover, this is what i want..~EASY & SIMPLE~

About my family? Simple structure for 5 members..and lots of cousins, which are having close relationships..I am luckier than others, i have parents and sisters who dote and concern me than other family, but the way we concern each others are special..look like arguing more than concerning..^^

As for my friends..ErM.. What should i say on this?? As i am in the university now..i have my own gang and different society to live on, and as for those hometown friends..with "We", a group of friends that are having at least 10 to 13 years friends, own school secondary groups, De 10 and my dear babe group - livy and xiaozhang, siau pei, and many others that are not stated..

For luv..i am single and available now.......without any complicated..hahahaha..maybe for last few months ago, i am not..but time flies, feeling also had gone ..^^

from the girl who give me this award..LEE PEI KIN..Pls see clearly..I want to say Thank You to u as u had given me this awards..i am stating something true now..hahahaha..Actually, i am not a good observant, maybe i can point out his or her characteristics for u but not all the time la..i am just giving my first impression on him or her..haha..but speaking on u..a girl who is hard to let me use words to describe actually..but if want me to describe in words..i could only use..Careful thought.. a different walking path that is having from others, with different kinds of special thinking..^^

As this award are so special..i would like to pass it to 9 person..let's see are you in the list..?If not, do not be disappointed also..there is a chance for u in the coming days..^^

Juicy ~~

Janice~~

Nico~~

SoloQ~~

PY~~

Joan~~

violet~~
there are 3 empty but is available for someone..^^

ToDay is the 14th of June~~

2011-06-14T23:43:00.000+08:00

14/6-亲吻情人节 Kiss Day
卿卿我我的日子，爱恋中的人在夏日增进感情的日子, 或许你的初吻就在这一天交换给了对方,或许你们因为这一天偶尔的流星雨的到来而海誓山盟..
一个大大的kiss.
寄语：山无陵, 江水为竭, 冬雷震震, 夏雨雪, 天地合, 乃敢与君绝。

It is 1 hour more for this day to end........
Lots of friends are in a relationship or it is complicated..
At first, i would like to congrats for those friends who are in a relationship now..
Especially for my best friends....(I don't want to state the name at here..haha^^)
Today, i wrote in Chinese..for this blog~~

看着你们幸福，我也很为你们感到开心，看着你们幸福的笑容，我也很满足了。。
记得我看过一本两性爱情笑话，其中一句是~~可以分享朋友的幸福，却不可以分享朋友的男人。。哈哈。。
说句实在的，没有任何理由能让自己不幸福，一切都是借口，爱就是爱，不爱就是不爱，如果爱上了，那就去争取，是你的终究是你的，但是如果不是你的，你再紧握也没有用，爱情是自己主宰，该怎么样就是跟着你自己的想法。。希望那些依然单身的人。。加油~~
单身没什么不好，只是可能在特别日子里，不会有那么一个人陪着你身边，看看天，看看星星，喂喂蚊子。。
可能我已经回答了很多次，为什么我不去找一个？
但，我的答案依然一样。。
哈哈~~
好了，今天到此为止~~
但愿你们大家快快乐乐~~
只要你们全部都快乐，
那就是我的幸福快乐。。
(只要是我的中学朋友，就会记得这一句很熟悉的话）

time to be facing the truth....

2011-05-31T22:11:00.000+08:00

time to be facing all the tins around me..in this holidays..i know i had made a loss on something..
just as what she said..you may get something which is the best at this moment, but there will be something lose in your life at the other time..
i had been learning to be myself..for this holiday..to find myself back..
i stay at home..
listen some music..
watch some drama or movies..
and also stick to the Chinese newspapers..
but this also make me realize something..
actually..i am not important to anyone at all..it sounds like i am c2p saying such things..but this is the truth..
maybe if i am missing now..nobody will know it..maybe except someone..

when i was in Malacca, as the time is limit..i had a small chat with weiling..
after having the chat with her, i thought a lots..
but..
maybe i was someone..
who is too rash..
too stupid..
too timid.........................................
but i never know that......
actually,
i was the one who is doing all the wrong things at those moments..
the chance is given,
but..
i am the one who do not know how to appreciate it..
i am the one who do not know how to go to grab it..
and i am the one who is only know how to miss all of it...........

holiday-ing part 2..

2011-05-19T23:59:00.020+08:00

a very long and damn relax holidays for me..
just staying at home..watching movie, playing games, eat this and that, doing some typing jobs..and sometimes go to shopping with my mum and aunt..this is what i had been doing for this holidays..
maybe i should go for a trip, doesn't it?since i am having such long holiday..not wasting my time staying at home..ya..i should be..but i couldn't afford for the place that i want to go..that's why i rather stay at home..

there is the good and bad that staying at home for less outgoing..haha..

the bad is..there might be a lot of people saying that why you always stay at home?

why don't you go to work?

why don't you go to learn how to drive car?

why don't you go out with your friends?

a lot of WHY will come out at this moments..

and sometimes..actually, i also feel lazy to go out..

and i don't have much dates also..as i am not a beauty like other girls..^^

what about the good?haha..

i can only say..there are more good than bad..

because..in this holidays,
i make the breakfast..

i cooked the fried rice as dinner..
i helped my mum to cook curry also..
i am not that good at cooking..
but......
i am trying my best..to learn..
there is nothing that could make you fell down as long as you want to learn..be brave to meet all the difficulty..

but in this holiday..
the most disappointed tin is..i do not get the favorite cola-cola can in the Macdonald..

i thought on collecting all the color..but now..i less the blue color..>.<
this is the pink color that i got for last week..

i wan to comment on the Macdonald in Muar..it was damn lousy..lao ya..lao ya..
they said that..the next week got the purple color can, but at that moment..it was going to sell the blue color can, since the waitress said like that, so i intend to buy both color set at the same time for the coming week..but when i went to the Macdonald......
another waitress said...OUT OF STOCK..
very very angry angry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!yerrrrrr.......>.<
both color no.....no......no.....no......T^T

mmu system..

2011-05-06T11:33:00.001+08:00

mmy system....a NICE system that all the mmu system need to be faced by all the students..
DxMN stupid..as a lady..i should not b speaking rude words..but.......>.<
really zZz..i hate it..
when mmu system gt problems.. what u can see is..

is.......FACEBOOK also gt problems...................
do u see tis..?all the people are protesting!!!!!!!
and..i am one of the protester.......hahahahahahaha..

i am in the holiday nw.......time for limteh-ing..
but i am available from mon to sat afternoon..
now..i start to arrange for the session..but it seem like there is a problem as the first meeting with old skumates, sotong and jidiao..but it really make us speechless..since the weather kept changing..
so sad to see so..as i cant meet with all of them..but we are arranging for another meet up for tonite at mori..
hope it din cancel at last.......^^

i was different or you are different..?

2011-04-28T19:22:00.000+08:00

i can only say..i am a coward..
i do not even dare to face you when i was in something..
i am the one who is silly..
but i am protecting the friendship we had..
i am selfish..just only care with myself..but not you..
in friend, i am behaving like tat..
yet..in love..i am also..
sound silly..but it is true..
if u dare to try, u mus dare to bear the responsibility, wat u wan, fight urself..but nt jus seeing wat he o she dun have..dare to pick it up, dare to put urself in, dare to believe wat u choose is rite, dun ever go to tin wat is the last outcomes, but jus trying to do ur best..

bek..

2011-04-17T19:35:00.000+08:00

time flies..a week had been gone just like tat..
i am having a different time..
a different timetable without thinking too much..doing assignment, watching a movie, have a eat with all frens..
simple but satisfy........ thank you to u all..
it is the time for me to be bek to myself..
it is the time for me to be the one who decided to giv it up..
i am who i was, so i want to tel everyone..i am bek..^^
and today..
i wish to say happy bufday to my 2nd aunt..
and in the cuming week..my cousin..ahye..happy bufday to u too..
wish all of u happy and healthy forever..^^

let the time wash it..

2011-04-12T03:45:00.002+08:00

just finish blogging at there..time for english blog..

this is an open blog for everyone to know how was my passing time or my new life..

but today..i had been feeling sad and disappointed..or feeling low for works also..

wherever how hard are the lives..we should make myself to stand up again..

#she told me..this is what we called life..dun ever go to force sumtg..that not suppose to be urs..

he told me..let the time waste it..a phrase that made me really really delight me a lot..

she told me..why don`t you go to make this thing clear?maybe this is a misunderstood that you do your decision so easy.. doesn`t?

she told me..be forgetful is not mean to be put it down..u still got us..

he told me..be strong and be happy..be yourself..#

many he and she? haha..you are the one i said if you are looking at this now..

but what i can said is:

when the time wanna past..you cant stop it..but what you can do..is to cherish the time..

i had been learn to be different..learn to accept all the things..but not running away..it is because..i dun wanna to be the tortoise again..i wan to grow up..i wan to know how far i can do it..

lol........

2011-03-23T22:42:00.000+08:00

lol.......i was wondering how long i din update my english blog..since when??last month?last year?
i also not so sure with it..
i am busy with the assignment..which make me feel very giddy and stressed sumtime..
maybe those who same group with me will feel also very stressed sumtime..cus i am nt tat.....clever as wat u tin....tis is a short sem..so we nid to rush everything before our break..
still gt another 2 case studies report haven't completed..maybe i will do it during tis weekend..if possible..hope to finish it..so tat when sku reopen,which is week 5..we can finish all the presentation things..but how to complete with it..as only leave so less days..........so duno..hope to complete the interview question also..b4 week 4 also..
lol..the stupid system..ask us to complete so many tins at once..
but it's ok with me..as i am doing it together with all my frens..lets GAMBATEH~~

a friend is important to me..no matter how good we are, how far we are, we are still the friend..
i might be able to make u feel i not care at all..but sometimes, actually, i care..i just don't to tel u..
i might be able to make u feel i not realize at all..but sometimes, actually, i realize..i just don't to speak it out..
i might be able to make u feel i am a noob..but actually, i am not..i just don't want to make you feel trouble..
i might be able to make u feel i am a fool..but actually, i am not..i just don't want to make you feel stressed..

it sounds silly to u after reading tis..but i am who i am..tis is who i am..i am someone who u know, and willing to do such things for you..if u are my friend..to me..a promise doesn't really make us feel the important..because sometimes..someone doesn't really want to break the promise but accidentally break it..and this will makes you sad over it....
i agree with someone who tel me..i dun simply promise if i am not sure with it..

《相知相恋相惜相爱》

2011-02-28T01:08:00.000+08:00

wish to share this with all my frens..as i had been missing for tis few weeks..as the past of valentine day..

相知 - 了解对方的喜爱，了解对方的生活，了解对方的一切，但却不是介入对方，而是站在对方的防御线，不管是男生还是女生，大家都有防御线，做什么事情最好都不要踏入那条线，因为再怎么脾气好的人也有防御线，也有想保护的东西，哪怕那只是回忆。。

相恋 - 两方的爱恋，是代表两个人的抉择，是在熟悉彼此，对方是否能接受彼此的一切后所做的选择。。这也意味着明白对方的一切后，你或许会是站在十字路口，徘徊着是否要转向继续恋上你或是回头，你会迷茫，彷徨着，但一旦你有了选择，一切就很容易了。。

相惜 - 当你选择回头时，这也是其中一种相惜，因为你或他懂你们彼此都不适合，所以选择回头，放弃回头对于彼此也是种痛苦。。当你选择继续爱下去时，你就会开始懂得去争取你们的相处时间，懂得去记得彼此的喜好，懂得去记下你们的快乐与不快乐，第一个例子：女人逛街时，会不忘买适合的衣服或其它东西给男人。另外个例子：男人在点东西吃时，会懂得女人的吃饭习惯或口味。。开始懂得去记得他或她的一切，也懂得去适应他或她的一切。。

相爱 – 当你历经相知相恋相惜，那么你们就是相爱，相爱了并不一定表示永恒。。所以，相爱的恋人，要懂的是能够在一起就是一种缘份，是有缘有份，还是有缘无份，一切都是一种相遇，相知相恋相惜相爱，就是要你们懂得如何经营这段感情，懂得如何维持这段感情，如何才明白真正的心连心，那就是真正的相爱。。

wish all my frens find ur happiness..

wat i had been done at the start of the new year..

2011-01-15T00:45:00.001+08:00

when i arrived muar..as i had been so long time din went bek..i gt lots of presents from my aunties and uncles who were jus bek from the china..

box?? nono..

surprise..it is a mirror~~

gt my name there~~ o..so nice~~ mmy buy tis..

2nd aunt buy de..

keychain from 3rd aunt~~

EVAN..xiaob~~so cute~~hahahaha

tis few days..my hand..haiz~~
a lot of tins cannt be eat..sour..spicy..cold..
all cannt b eat de..
so xin ku..i cannt eat..
today..long, shin, burger, ahbi and solo cum to muar to treat burger's leg..and we had an enjoyable day to eat..
we went to tan chi jie..eat wan tan mee..i ate pisang goreng..then go to rou gan shop..
we also went to tanjong ate rojak..
after that, the weather was not tat nice..
we went to pasar malam a while only..
the last station..is my hse..mmy was at outside..haha..if she saw all of them..she sure shocked as like nya also..
but we dun take any photo..but anyway..it was a nice day~~ haha~~
i am very happy today..since so many days..din meet..^^

it had been so long time i away from here..

2010-12-25T02:55:00.003+08:00

it had been so long time i quit from blogging..
basically..my life is ongoing without happening any special occasion
but tonight..is the Christmas Eve..i am having it at Malacca..
I wish I can go to the Portuguese Village for a walk..to see how beautiful is the event is celebrating..
As for this year..i have a different Christmas..I had a celebration with many PM1314 friends yesterday night..
I had many different Christmas presents..
Let start with the party of 1314 that i joined..
the party was indeed a nice party with games and foods..and exchange present..
let me show u some of the picture with my presents that i got for this year..hahahaha..^^

My Christmas Party Present~~

I got the exchange present..and it is from long..

Let me show u another 2 presents which i had received before the Christmas..hehe^^

This is from Solo Q..hahahaha..my eldest son's wife~~

This is what i got it from W3iLing de..a music key chain..^^

I got myself a Christmas present..Actually..i had promised my nya nya to buy..i suppose to buy it long time ago..yet..i kept forgot to buy it..so that day when i went to watch movie with them..i brought this..which i took it as my Christmas present also..nice le..the another cartoon i like it.. (hey bro..when u saw this..dun tel my nya nya that i just brought it..hehe)

I really feel i am a very lucky people that which i got many friends around me to support me..and there are 12 people i would like to say thank you as what you all had been done for me..
(when i was unhappy..without u all..i believe..i won't be able to get through all of this and when i was in trouble..with all of your help..i made it..and thank you for keeping secrets on what crazy thinking i had been done..alikato)
=Sian
=Hoong
=CYee
=Ling
=OldRat
=SoloYQY
=Shin
=Kin
=Peng
=Ychan
=X Zhang
=Pei

keep go on..

2010-11-23T21:46:00.002+08:00

life is on going..
my about me..??hehehehe..
i am having my midterm exam for the cuming next 2 weeks..
marketing..statistics..omg..
although we got the midterm break..but the exam still on..haiz....
after the midterm break..we will got the macroeconomics and financial managerial....
for all my stpm frens and all my mmu frens..GAMBATEH~~

and when i was watching the Beauty Knows No Pain....a Hongkong drama..
i learn some love things..

这个世界虽然很大，
森林里面的树也很多，
但要找一棵你喜欢又合你心意的，
真的很难，
如果勉强找到一棵树来撑场面的话，
到最后后悔的那个只会是自己。

而我最近学会了。。一句话。。
很好的计划永远比不上很坏的变化。。
或许当有变化时，
会有无奈的心情但你要知道的是你无法改变任何事情，
但要学会走一步，退一步，走一步，退一步。。

hey bro..jus for u~~

2010-11-07T12:38:00.002+08:00

hey bro..happy bufday..altot i am nt in the muar nw..but my heart still with u..
time flies..1 year pass again..gt any wishes?? [keep in ur heart pls..dun tel me..XD]
let me give u a cake..from secret recipe..i jus can treat u like tat..since i am poor nw..

nice right~~

i had been busy with my stuff at here..hw i wish sumday mmu system can be more lively than other school...
actually..mmu is fine with everytins..jus the system is the main problems..it had made me headache sumtime..i love the environment and the way of study..just what i had is when the lecturer asked me to answer their question..i do not deny i am not good at speaking in english..haiz..actually..it is because i am not a very brave people..haha..^^
tis is the 1st time i spent my public holiday at malacca with my gang..hehe..
i had spent all my time wisely with sleeping..doing homework..eating..watching basketball match and online-ing..
the BBF ques..make me pening for 2hours..but i still fail to do the ques..as the ques was totally different from the way that our 'active' lecturer teach....T^T
i am going to do my BST later..since i am doing my macro nw..
the macro teacher.......T.T..i duno wat he is teaching actually........but the other lecturer also same..there is no much different....so i dun tin if i transfer my cls..there will be sum help with it..
let us GAMBATEH together ba....

满足的假期。。。。

2010-10-21T21:30:00.000+08:00

late update~~ What had i done on my holiday...actually nothing except..EST=Eating, Sleeping, Talking..hehe..but it was satisfied for me....as i had been no resting for so many days..

the drink i order..

2010-10-01 have a small gathering with another 3 sisters at Chef Delights..

the cheese cake tat cy ordered....

2010-10-05 my mama and joanne went to kl..mama had brought me a pencil case and my kuma-kuma new members..Num 16 is in pink color..but i was finding the orange color..hehe..^^

the pencil case and my new 16 ~ ~

2010-10-06 badminton game with ky, shin, cheryang, solo and long..altot i was having the backache after i went back..haha..and my shoes..@.@..i was totally speechless when saw that..my mama lend a broken shoes to me........omg.....and tQ long and solo..for lending their shoes to me..and tat nite..i went out to gai gai for a while...is a meaningful day..here share sum pic for 3 ppl playing basketball after the badminton games..

our breakfast.......

2010-10-07 had a nice mlc trip with weiling..weiling..alikato for acc me here and there..altot most of the time we are eating more than shopping..^^

our drinks.....nice le..but purple de nicer......

icecream..we share 1 after we went to buy tis and tat..

after tat, we went to meet with my mama and had our lunch at KFC~~
then we continue our shopping hour again.........but around 4 sumting...

tea time~~~~~~~
(actually..is because both of us..walk until too tired edy,
so we went to find a place which have a nice chair and nice place for chatting and relaxing......)

wat can i say is that..i really had a fun time tat day..altot i was too tired tat day..haha...

2010-10-08 a day wat i owez speechless for so many years..but tis time no..as i was having fever for whole day..without any good mood..but luckily gt purple acc me for talking and one piece to accompany me..

cus i was having too high fever..i would lik to say sorry to hoong, shin, long for putting aeroplane..for nt goin to sing k tat day....then as for syee yun and shao wei..for nt goin to hav breakfast with u all..i was totally blur at tat time le..shao wei..i noe u cum bek for 3 weeks..haiz..but i cannt go out with u..paise neh~~

my holidays ma..was ongoing with all activities..the weekend is full with gathering le.....^^

an extremely short post for my recently lifestyle

2010-09-19T19:13:00.000+08:00

my final is cuming soon..but i still gt the mood to blog..
haiz..i also duno why..there is no reason for me to be so lazy....
i had finish my management and maths..but maths still gt some problems nid to ask my frens..
what about my information systems, malaysian studies and accounting..
when i was reading the accounting just now..i saw a lot of stars..=.=
then i decided to study information systems 1st..but i saw a lot of word terms that i not undstnd at all..and the internet line of ixora line..suck......i cannot check the meaning of the terms.. >.<
i was busy with the assignment for last few weeks..
actually i got sum pic wan show u all..but the time doesn't allow me to do so..
and welcome to our new member Evan..who is my cousin, yc and keong son..
i wan go bek to study le.......
gambateh to all my frens..............jiayou^^
and gudluck**

2010-08-19 最近的我

2010-08-19T14:05:00.001+08:00

最近的我。。疯了。。也变懒惰了。。

讨厌这个季节的我。。却很喜欢这个季节。。雨季的降临。。生命的低潮。。

最近的我很差劲。。我失去了自己该走的路。。

我不知道为什么我做什么事情都提不起心情。。

最近越来越喜欢慕容晓晓的爱情买卖和恋上蔡依林的玩爱之徒。。
超喜欢。。因为这就是我的风格。。

爱情不是一场买卖，不是你背叛后要得回来的爱情，不管是男人或女人，出卖的爱情，代价就是你的一生将背负一辈子的良心债，成为你爱情里的污点。。没有一个女人不要求最平凡的爱情，但不是每一个人有那个资格去得到平凡的爱情，而我也不例外。。我要平凡的依赖，但我自己知道我要不起，因为我给不回同等的爱请。。我的爱不是每个人要得起，因为负担我感觉有时太大了。。

special time for blogging.....

2010-08-17T22:09:00.001+08:00

i feel very tired nw..why?? cus i was jus bek from Muar..as i just at home for 28 hours only..but i had slept for 7 hours..wat bout the other 21 hours??.....hehe................let me share now...

after my lunch..i went to repair the printer..when watching the technical man repaired my printer..haha...i was laughing secretly..bcus he was sneezing..and he was tearing the tissue for his nose and my printer..i was standing beside him.....i was just afraid tat..he will mistook the tissue paper..ahaha...but it really made me angry..when seeing them working.....they had almost wasted my 2 hours time.......T^T

after arrived home..the worst tin happen................the printer..cannot b used....T.T

i called the man again...he said..maybe when i was moving the printer, the ink was terbalik again.....walao..it really made me like to go to their shop and scold those 3 words.. after repairing..u still tel me such stupid tin..if not the ink is very expensive..u tot i will go back again a..and the external ink will save the ink ma..so this had taught me..dun do such silly tins again..............

then..i ate my hua shen tang..it was really nice..i love it......*.*

zh, cs and i were planning to go out after 4pm..but the rain.........started to drop when it was bout 3.45..and stopped at 4.07.......that made cs scolding at it.. since we 2 had been no meeting for about 2 months..and i told her that i will not be back for many weeks again..so this made her miss me and how we wish to go out.. then the date was cancel due to the 'non-stop' rain.......

since the time was empty...so i was downloading the dou yu...........but after half hour...i was asked to accompany my mum fetch my sis went to the tuition and also brought somethings and the A4 paper for ptptn..

after coming back..i went to print all the things and notes..and had a bath b4 i went to bbQ at grandma hse..ahahahaha........^-^

The pictures show the 1st.........fail product~~

The next day..i woke up b4 9am.......then when i was having the breakfast with my mum......my darling arrived at my house..and she had made a lot of people wake up bcus of her hon............=.='''
after that, we had a nice chat at mcd..but the time was too short..how i hope it will be longer..........as we gt many tins to share.......i went back malacca..........i hate this kind of feeling..but what can i do....haha..but i still gt someone at Malacca......
I miss Muar..and i miss Malacca also....

this is the patung that my sis had brought...The purple 1 is mine~~

altot time was really short for me, i was tired but i was satisfied.....that is what i called uni life~~

2010-08-06 出门走走

2010-08-07T16:17:00.002+08:00

晴_菱今日特报：

天气不错。。今天和weiling，long， solo和khang一起看电影。。The Last Airbender。。不过没结局。。~.~

好久都没和朋友那样出去了。。今天虽然很累，但我很开心。。开心。。看完后，我们就在DP走走。。Candy来找我们。。就买买东西。。看看走走。。在士林吃点东西，有继续我们的jongker walk。。啊哈哈哈哈。。开心呐。。第一次去jonker。。没下雨。。几开心一下。。看看走走。。还有看到一个男的。。在台上跳舞。。@.@

过后在一间小但长的店吃晚餐。。不错哦。。很好吃。。吃到我太饱了。。
还有，weiling 和solo各有一张卡片。。

我在jonker买了黄梨饼。。因为本来我是要买那个折来折去的字，可是啊。。就没有。。那里卖的全不是。。haiz。。买不到。。不过看到很多我很喜欢的卡通鞋子。。有pooh，叮当，sinchan。。。。。但是就是没堂堂的那种。。有的话。。我一定买一双。。XD

还有。。谢谢你们，我今天好快乐。。开心。。

好累了。。要睡觉了。。晚安了各位。。

p/s：这是昨晚写了没post的。。

2010-08-02 花开的女人。。chap2-开始的准备。。

2010-08-04T00:26:00.000+08:00

你一直在执着着，就像荷花池里的荷花，荷花绽放的时间很短暂，虽然它本身知道它的生命快走到尽头，它也知道自己不可以选择，它知道绽放后它的生命就快结束了。。但它从不去期待自己仍有第二次绽放，因为并不是每一朵荷花有第二次绽放的机会。。

也就是说，你觉得并不是每次的爱情都有重来，你觉得错过了会遗憾。。但你不曾想过，你的爱情亦会成为她的负担，照成她的厌恶，你的爱，她不能收，也收不下，因为她对你的感觉不曾是爱情。。

荷花即使知道自己不管再绽放多一次，它也会走到它生命的尽头，但它选择努力地开出一朵美丽的荷花的机会，因为它即使开得很普通，它的生命也是走到尽头，或许只是多让自己再绽放多一次，但荷花却不要，它宁愿选择开得美丽，开得灿烂。。

你选择了后者，你觉得开多一回好过只开一次就走到生命的尽头，就是你觉得等待好过爱上别人，等待的累，永远只要她的一句话，一句关心，你就觉得等待很满足，足够了。。曾经我和你一样，但我等得好累。。所以我选择努力放手，不是不爱了，而是已经爱够了，我的爱情。。已经是他的负担。。

在等待的时候，你的世界是黑暗的，你明知你选择的等待只是在逃避，但你就是没办法不那么做，你没有办法，你不想对自己残忍，更不想对她残忍，但当你不对别人残忍时，就是对自己残忍，不对自己绝一点，你永远不会走出那个世界，永远放不下那个心中的位子，没有等待的爱情是不受伤的，应该是说没有一段感情是不受伤的，爱不到的通常是最珍贵的。。也是最不甘心的。。不是你没资格，而是时间的错过。。你拥有缘，但份却必须靠自己怎样去争取，争取到的爱情也并不一定是你的。。爱情就是如此。。

你的不快乐就是因为那女人的不够干脆俐落，就是因为她的答案不够果决，所以你一直在期待，希望自己还有那份机会，所以你会经常记起、思念她，让你的生活被她随便一个消息牵动着。。

在等待光的瞬间，你必需先处理掉这道等待的光，那真正属于你的光才会走进你的心照耀着你，不过那得先找回那个遗落的人，这样才能找回遗落的心。。那才能找得回光真正的方向。。

花开的女人。。chap1-结束的开始。。

2010-07-23T11:58:00.001+08:00

走不出的迷茫，像池里的荷花花开的时间很短暂。。即使知道很快就会凋谢。。

就是死的结局，它也是选择开得灿烂走完它的路。。因为它珍惜时间的短暂。。

在黑暗的角落，你明知你选的是逃避但却没办法。。使自己放手放下那位子。。

不快乐的时候，你承受了那女人的不够潇洒果决。。让回忆涌现产生了希望。。

等待光的瞬间，找回遗落的人才能找回遗落的心。。那才能找得回光的方向。。

突然有那种感觉想写完。。他是别人的部落格抄来的。。希望他不要生气。。真心地希望你幸福快乐。。

不变的友情

2010-07-22T11:34:00.000+08:00

*世界会一直在转，身边的人也会一直在换，但只有一种人不会变，那就是真心待你的人，真心待你的人会永远默默守护着你，而你不管在哪里，请相信我会一直守护着你，因为在我的世界里，我爱你。。*

在这世界，我真正相信的人不多，而有两个人，和一个特别人是我永远原意以性命来交替的，他们也是这世界上唯一不会放弃我，不背弃我的人，曾经不管山高风大，水深火热，我们都一起熬过来了。。不管我离你们有多远，我依然会回到和你们一开始的起跑点。。如果说我们的友情像一个选手在赛跑，跑向终点就会赢。。如果我是那个选手，但你们在起跑点出事了，我愿意回归起点，尽管我知道我会输掉这场比赛，因为你们是我永远换不回的。。

有个人问我，你这样交心，有天你们同时被绑架了，有两个人可以从三个人里向外的那个人求救，那你怎么做？

我笑笑地说：我永远一定会是留下的那个，但。。有另外一个可能就是我们三个到最后都没有活着，因为如果留下的那个出意外，那活着的，也是痛苦的，只有一种人我会愿意付出真心，就是不会出卖我的人，而唯一让我愿意付出生命的人，也只有这种不管我跑多远，他们永远都是守着我的人。。

如果我的守护天使除了父母以外，那就是你们，我永远都比别人幸福，永远有红和璇，也永远有佳艺的守护。。

我只想说：世界怎样变，我对你们永远不变。。。。

2010-07-18。。

2010-07-21T04:07:00.001+08:00

今天我不知道怎么那么想写部落，可是我又想不到我要写什么。。

莎士比亚说：To be o not to be, tat is a question.. 只是看我们要用什么角度去面对问题而已。。

这是我从一个人身上学到的。。从我们的角度来说，我们看的事情，永远不和他们一样。。就拿一个人被拒绝后的两种结果，如果你遇上的人是真心觉得你很好却不适合他的人，那他会让你知道你对他的付出。。虽然他不能给你什么，但你们还是朋友，换不回爱情却换到友情，成为关系比较好的朋友，所以你即使被拒绝了却也觉得很开心，因为至少你的付出不会让他当成是负担或是你很烦这类的借口，但如果遇上不同种的人，那他会觉得你对他的付出是他的负担，让他一直避着你，不回你信息，不回你电话，不再像没告白前的那样的话，那这个人这么做的原因有二：他给不起你要的爱情，就是他觉得继续联系只会让你有幻想，他怕给你的友情被误当成为爱情，其二就是他一开始就是在玩你，让你爱上他，惦记他后，他就闪人。。说真的，这种人，不管男女，他是潇洒，不过那都是讲好听的，难听的一句话，他们都是爱情的缩头乌龟，永远的花心王，因为你的爱与不爱永远都讲不出口。。

要学会从那种不会开花的爱情里站起来永远比那种在一起后分手的爱情来得难。。

好了是时候睡觉了。。。。。

在睡觉前，希望我的预言可以让他等到他所值得的那个女人，让他幸福地拥有属于他的爱情。。

不一样的人事物。。我改变的人生。。

2010-07-18T02:40:00.001+08:00

这些日子以来，我变了，这是我所察觉的，真感谢这些让我变的人，你们像py说的向日葵，永远照耀着别人的生命，但在我的生命中，认识你们后，我觉得你们比较像太阳，哪怕只是一棵快枯萎的小草，你们依然尽心尽力地照耀着，让他们的生命再走到尽头时，依然努力活下去。。

不说不代表我不在意，不说不代表我没看见，不说并不代表我并不生气，而是我已做好选择放弃，因为不放弃，解救回来后结局依然一样。。我早就预料到这天的到来，只是我。。选择去逃避，但我知道逃避永远解决不了，所以我的选择。。就是放弃，因为这是唯一的解救方法。。

我不喜欢来去一样的事情，尽管我有多在乎。。

爱情很美丽，但如果不坦诚，再美丽的爱情永远不是爱情，那不是真爱。。

友情很纯真，但如果不忠诚，再纯真的友情永远不是友情，那依是背叛。。

亲情很深厚，但如果不关心，再深厚的亲情永远不是亲情，那就是忽略。。

7

2010-07-11T12:42:00.001+08:00

my lucky num..7~~

my blog had been read by others..for 777 times..haha..thanks to all my readers..

but today is not my lucky day..

i thought my leg will be better after the day interview....but what have happened is..the things become worse..when i woke up this morning..my leg was totally in red and pain..but now better..as i dun walk around much..i still thinking on going to MMU corner tonight with them..but..........i think..the ans now..is NO..i just hope that my leg won't swollen start from now..

my sis..went to city for her 1st time walk..hope she can lead a better life at there..although..the place is nosier, kampung than Muar la..i still hope she fights for her dream car..

#hey stupid bro..faster go to find out where got the nai ji er..^^#

interview..09072010

2010-07-10T02:19:00.000+08:00

1st of all..Sorry for Chiow Sian..as today i din call you..i noe it is a big day for u..but..sorry to say that..i gt an interview today..that's why i din call you..dun angry ya..when i go bek muar, jus celebrate with u..muaks..i noe u ar the nicest ppl to me de.. and Happy Bufday~~

Today i went to a factory named Teknogas(M) SDN BHD for interview..It is for the BMG assignment..with 10 people..

12 noon, we all gather at Ixora foodcourt..[actually, all at there except for candy, huey ling,and li jiet]

After that we sat the car went to li jiet house..and our s hong bro..heard wrong instructions..and li jiet also gave wrong instructions..then they let k chen..kept driving here and there..after calling zack for confirming the number of the house..we went to meet Candy in front of shopping mall..erm..but also look like a market..wherever la..as long as it is named as Bintang..haha..After a long time..finally we arrived the factory..it is located in the industrial area..

We had an interview with MR Morgan and Candy dad, MR Chua KS in about 30 min time..(including the time of setting the camera and i changed my place with Fang Zheng, as his place can hear what MR Morgan said clearly..(i know i got a bit..deaf) and they took a lot of photo and there is an video..if gt chance i will upload the video..and the photo..wait for Candy to give me..^^

We took a photo with Mr Morgan and Mr Chua before we leave the factory..Before that, we still have a look around the area..and Mr Morgan gave an explanation for us..

After that, we went to the glove factory which is 5 minutes from the factory..it is located at..sumwhere..near beach..haha..the beach was really clean as what i saw..it was extremely beautiful..

We were brought to meet with the smallest son of the boss..named Nicholas..[actually..i am not sure with the name..ahaha..]

After the introduction of himself, he brought us to the glove factory..he gave a good explain for us..but we all were annoyed by the smell of the coagulation process..the smell..is same as a person who had just straight or curl their hair..[He had a nice with Candy..XD]and the temperature..is very high..and it was divided by the size of the gloves..After all showing us all the area, he treat us drinks..

The time was about 3.40pm..and we got a video that..a bear is introducing the factory..they all kept said cut, NG and it was recorded for 3 to 4 times..

After finish recording, khang chen sent all of us back..

Today i learn something:

We need to think further and faster than the boss when we had completed a task on hand..

That is the biggest thing that i have learn for my future..

Quite tired for today but satisfiedbecause i had completed half of the assignment..and what i need to do now is preparing all the interview`s paperwork before Sunday..

and also for the assignment of Malaysian Studies..must gambateh for midterm and assignment start from now..

i like to say Thank You for all the members[Bear, Candy, S hong, K chen, Z long, F zheng, Shiyin, Zack, and Hueyling] and Sorry if i had made any mistake before~~

My legs are very painful now..i just can sleep without touching the bed and bath my leg without touching the water..i decided to throw the shoes away from now..>.<[i don't want to upload the photo..later all of you vomit out your food..as i had sent 1 for my sis which is working at Vietnam now..]Actually, i should ask my mum to send me the shoes..since this pair of shoes..really..ridiculous..........>.<

recently..bad mood..bad luck..bad things...

2010-07-09T00:52:00.002+08:00

I duno believe wat I had read..but wat I saw is smtg real..doesnt..??
But I chose to see again……………….but what I had saw..the 2nd worst thing..if the 1st thing is losing a person I love..i think I am a person who kept making the funny thing for ppl to laugh at..
How silly I am..I think I am the worst people in this world..
After this, I learn how to be independent and learn not to believe……….
And..i hope to say thank you to several people..
1. Weiling..a vey tQ for u..since u had heard for whole night..i admire your patience..and admire how you protect the thing you hope to protect..but I hope u dun be like me..^^
我的一面之词，我不希望你去评判，但我却希望你。。只听我诉苦后当没事。。
2. Peiyun.. many meaningful theory I had been learnt from u..Although maybe u dun took it as a matter but to me..it was a very nice night..
关心你的人会经常去了解你的生活和你，但当你利用这点去伤害对方时，那就是双重伤害。。
3. Shinhong and Zhenlong..hong: tQ for acc me when I was in bad mood for 2 moody Tuesday..smtg silly I had done to myself..as I make my life for so miseable..but I was happy as I got you to help me to get over all of this..although I know you wont give me any response and I am wasting my saliva talking to you..but I feel better after talking to you..
Long: haha..quite touch..as what you had said: 不用紧，你有我这个一个月的朋友..
Maybe I should be said sorry also..as I had been..脸黑黑for almost whole morning..
4. Solo Q..but 1st ..sorry as I unable to teach you..as I was really having bad mood for the night..although weiling said I should scold you..haha..but I am grateful to you also.. because it was the time for me to face all those things..as you had given me 1 nite to make up my mind..
5. Jing wei..i felt relief after so long time for keeping those things..you should cheers always..don’t keep all the things inside..and..learn to relax..relax..
Cherish~~

And HAPPY BUFDAY TO LIM CHIOW SIAN……………..MUAKS..MY dear, miss you so much…….i gt a lot of things to you when I get bek to muar..wait me..for celebrating your bufday…..so sorry as your bufday meet with my midterm test..

2010-06-29

2010-07-05T09:57:00.001+08:00

tis post suppose to be post on yesterday nite, but bcus of the slow line of ixora....so i was forced to delay it...

sorry~~

and the other reason i delay is..when i want to post the post jus now..i found that the post..is in a blank..aiseh...=.=''

i would like to recommend a video for u all..it is nice..

and quite touching..(ok la..i noe it is touching..^^)

maybe the storyline is very normal..but the feel and what it had brought to me is really..something real..

what i learnt from this video..not only the noble love from a man towards a woman..but also the love when it is going to end..and the love which is going to be just memory..

# when love is going to end, wherever how tightly you holding, it will also escape from you..although you really hope to hold it for your life..but if it was the time for us to let go, we should not keep it..as if we want to lead happy life..

love is just like a math equation, but what it is different is 1 not equal to 1..#

珍惜生命。。

2010-06-20T23:57:00.002+08:00

最近发生了很多车祸，而最让我感到难过的是ST.Andrew学校的副校长，一家人5死3伤，这也应验了天有不测之风云，人有旦夕之祸福，我们永远都不会知道我们的下一秒会如何。。就像这场车祸。。明明是一场快乐的旅程，而在下几秒，只因为后面的罗里司机的一个不小心，一家8 口留下来的只剩3个人。。真是人生中的悲痛，更悲痛的是自己亲眼见到家人离开。。那才是生命中无法磨灭的痛，希望你们能尽早走出这一场悲伤。。

这就是为什么在马路上，大家不要乱乱来，尤其是驾车的人。。你们知道吗？？你们手中握着的不只是你的生命，而是整车人，整条马路人的生命。。

因为不知道下一秒你会发生什么事，所以。。请你们珍惜生命里的每一刻，当要在马路上加速时，请想想你车上的人。。即使是只有你一个人。。

有的人想活得长久些，而他的生命却注定之有那么短，有的人想轻生了解生命，却一次又一次地被救起，有的人则要在鬼门关走一回才会改变人生的看法，那就是生命。。

生命的起跑点和终结点。。生命的旅程看似短暂，却很长远，看似长远，却是如此的短暂。。

我们应该努力地利用生命里的每份每秒去完成自己想做的事，如果有一天你遭遇到不测，你也会走得开心，也没有那么多遗憾。。

今日感想：我相信我做对了。。是时候要开始回漂泊的生活，那才是属于自己的生活。。

随便讲讲~~

2010-06-11T16:10:00.000+08:00

马六甲刚刚下过雨。。雨后的阳光很烈，特别地大。。

相较之下，我还是喜欢雨后的晴天。。哈哈。。

谁叫我天生就是散骨头。。

刚刚家里的阳台，“进水了”。。我拿了拖把拖拖拖拖。。才把水拖完出去。。哈哈。。

我的新房客，我家来了一个新房客，跟小雯一样读IB，就是跟我之前想读的一样，你问我为什么后来又不想读了是吗？？

因为我想读。。B&F。。就那么简单。。哈哈。。

说会我的新房客，她真的是一个很斯文的女孩哦。。一脸就看得出是天生乖乖女，而且是读书女，大家闺秀，哪里像我。。haiz。。

下过雨了，天气又变回热的了。。我呢。。现在就想去好好睡一觉。。

献给特别的人。。

2010-06-11T00:46:00.000+08:00

今晚和你聊到很愉快。。

不用看，就是你。。哈哈

知道你的故事后，如果是以前的我，我会叫你继续地等，但那时五年前的我会说的话，如今的我只想说，等待很美丽，也很伟大，但最后呢？？没有人懂结局是什么。。这就是爱情。。

我只想说：或许对方对你一心一意，但不是每一个人都适合远距离的爱情。。

因为那要承受很大的思念、想念。。

等待的爱情最长久。。容易破碎却也最珍贵。。

问世间情为何物，相爱的不能在一起，不相爱的，却纠缠不清。。情，视为何物？？

好了，讲完了。。是时候就寝了。。哈哈

2010-06-08 我的第一百个post。。

2010-06-09T00:01:00.005+08:00

我达到了我的第一百个。。

祝peifen姐姐生日快乐~~

来报告我最近的生活。。

开学了。。我重返大学生活。。

只是，没有了DE10的陪伴。。那读起书来的感觉会是怎样的。。

我和他们也不完全没有一起读书啦。。满多课也有在一起的。。都有和认识的朋友在一起上课，像yeeteng和tatping。。能和认识的人一起上课是一件幸福的事~~

我正在学习如何去和不同种类的人一起学习。。我的时间和星泓的时间一样，有两堂课和DE10一样，有三堂课好像是和yeeteng，tatping一样，呵呵。。开心啊。。到哪里都有认识的人。。还有一堂课和weiling一样。。

最近啊。。很多犯罪的案件。。就好像新山的那个可怜女孩。。

他让我再次感受到生命的可贵，人生如戏，戏如人生，有些人来这个世界就好像一场旅行的短暂，而有些人的生命却好像一场战争的长久，我希望世界可以少一些战争，少一些政治风云，把那些智慧、精神、金钱及物质资源为我们的地球、大自然设想，那不是更好吗？？那样犯罪的人会减少，因为有工作，而且大家的财富也不分差很大。。

我的假期很遗憾就这样过去了~~

没有和朋友去喝茶，也没有什么大大血拼。。

只是去kukup。。还有我们这次有拍大合照。。这就是我的家庭，不过少了一人，不然更完美。。

这是一个短暂但快乐的旅程。。我四点才睡。。隔天，要六点才到家，过后七点就回来马六甲。。

累死了。。幸好我是傍晚六点才上课。。不然我肯定在班上睡觉。。

最近啊。。老是很多东西想写，不过啊。。我这几天很累。。所以完全不能集中精神，我刚刚啊。。坐在电脑前面趴趴睡。。今天很累啊。。遇到两个慢慢慢慢的老师，比我家阿堂还慢的老师。。omg。。accounting完全看不到才死，那个柱子刚刚好挡到完。。真是TMD。。

我的星期四最忙。。还有晚课，Malaysian Studies。。没办法谁叫我那天手脚慢。。其他时间不可以。。

好了。。我累了。。今天到此为止吧！！

大家晚安。。nitez--

小小报告。。

2010-06-04T23:53:00.000+08:00

很久很久懒惰上来了。。

两个月。。我没有上来写我的生活。。

因为。。已经不懂得该从何说起。。

来来。。今晚慢慢讲~~

四月里，没什么活动。。

20日，yeye和leen leen 订婚了。。祝愿他们有情人终成眷属。。

28日- 第一次和阿洋。。去走街。。

我们去看《初恋红豆冰》。。是一部讲述纯纯的初恋开始。。

初恋，那是每个人爱情里最美丽的焦点，也是大家生命里最有纪念的爱情故事。。

过后就去sakura house吃sushi~~haha~~

遇到yeeteng。。过后就去pasar malam 买豆花水回ixora吃。。

30日，和Group17的人去魔力。。

礼物先给syeeyun。。因为接下去考试没办法与她庆祝。。

过后再和鱿鱼去tatawoo。。聊聊最近的生活。。今晚连续两摊。。累~~

五月里，忙着考试。。

大多时间。。都是忙课业。。我做了第一个网页，哈哈。。虽然它没有别人的美丽与创意，但却拥有着我的心思。。my web~~

希望大家会喜欢。。重点是老师会给多一点分。。我可是花很多时间的。。但是shinhong的更花时间。。他的真的很不错。。peikin的也是。。不过我忘了link。。paise啦~~

23日开始放假咯。。等今晚或明天在向大家报告。。

我刚刚在报纸看到的。。我改了一些~~

#。我们无法挑选自己的家庭，却能改变自己命运的结局。#

*~就算一觉醒来男人/女人都绝迹了，我还是一样要让自己美丽/帅气，因为我要为自己而活~*

^-男女关系，不过是游戏一场，不会痛，不会死人的-^

我赞成。。我们要为我们自己而活，而不是为别人而活。。那才叫幸福的人生~~

最近的我怎么了。。

2010-04-16T00:27:00.000+08:00

开始觉得我离我现在的这个生活圈子越来越远。。我不明白的是是我格格不入还是你们觉得我很闷不想理我。。我发现。。这阵子以来，感觉的出现已经无数次了。。但我依然选择相信我的抉择。。但昨天起，我还是得去正视那个问题。。

如果我今天说的话造成对你们的伤害。。对不起。。
我知道自己的脾气跟个性，恕我直言，我总是觉得自己离你们很远。。最近。。我赫然发现我离你们更远了，我也发现。。即使我多么努力地融入你们的话题。。我依然是话题外。。就好像那天。。当你们在谈戏剧的时候，我有一瞬间觉得如果我出声只会让气氛变很僵。。
我其中一个亲爱的读者。。请你把那天告诉我的话：你很会看人。。收回吧！！
这一句话，我已经不能用了，因为我已经不再也相信我自己人的能力。。我的第六感太太太太敏感。。甚至让我快要会呼吸不来了。。我还怕去读别人心中想的。。每当我觉得我读到时，我害怕了。。尤其是伤心的事。。对不起。。
生意终于结束了。。谢谢你们大家的团结，如果我有过分的行为。。请原谅。。
这是我们最后一次那么多人的assignment。。因为接下去。。我们应该会很少一起做功课了。。
最后。。我想说：我是真的珍惜才在乎。。
也想说：近日以来，脾气甚差，心情糟透，若有得罪，在此谢罪。。

我的假期。。

2010-03-22T21:40:00.000+08:00

我的假期。。泡汤了。。手头上的功课。。加上我还有很多很多的户外活动。。怎样读书？？救命啊。。。。。。。。。
真希望我有一个属于自己的假期。。很想去旅行。。看到豪哥快走完整个马来西亚半岛了。。希望我可以。。但是。。那止于幻想。。回来现实吧！！
我的小老鼠不见了。。好想念它。。我的mouse。。你自己走回来吧。。没有你。。我的电脑很痛苦。。啊~~
最近。。心情很火。。完全失去控制。。
压力淹没了我的意志。。
沉默毁灭了我的理智。。
这或许对我来说最好。。

最近。。好多人。。有感情事。。

2010-03-18T01:49:00.000+08:00

最近，很多人分手，也很多人在一起。。这个世界就是这样地反反复复。。
爱情。。对于许多人来说。。是一个很抽象的感觉。。
面子书。。最近有好多短篇的爱情故事。。让很多人落下了泪。。
让我好想坠入爱河。。但，我却步了。。
矛盾。。
爱情，永远离我很远。。
因为。。我还没在对的时间遇上对的人。。
#晴菱之爱情缘定律#
在对的时间，遇上对的人。。是注定缘份。。
在对的时间，遇上错的人。。是有缘无份。。
在错的时间，遇上对的人。。是天意弄人。。
在错的时间，遇上错的人。。是荒唐情缘。。

在对的时间，遇上对的人。。并不代表一定会厮守到老。。
在对的时间，遇上错的人。。并不表示未来不会在一起。。
在错的时间，遇上对的人。。并不代表那些是人生遗憾。。
在错的时间，遇上错的人。。并不表示永远没发展空间。。

新年。。我是怎样过。。part4~the end for my cny........& recently.......

2010-03-18T01:20:00.000+08:00

the end for the cny 2010..chu 7, the 7th day of cny..is the bufday of everyone..is ren ri..
then i get another bufday today..haha..tis year..i gt 4 days for my bufday..but i was jus hanging at my hse..
seriously..i duno why..i felt very unsecure with many things..bcus i am too sensitive..o bcus i can see thro' every1..haha..i was jus relaxing for this day..i was EST-ing at my hse..together with my mum..hehe..
.......and here the present list i received since my 1st bufday..hehe..
Specially from Kheng at overseas:
A bufday card..
Specially from Jin Rong:
A photo flame with 2 little fish..
Specially from Zhoong, Csian & Cyee:
14 alphabet "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" by using the RM0.50..and bufday cards..
Specially from Shong and Kyang:
A chocolate cake..
Specially from Marvin:
A 8GB pendrive..
Specially from Angela, Aiai, SiDaJie & Julie:
A combined photo, photo flame and a bufday card..
*p/s : pls la..i am nt auntie la..

I think..the presents are all in the list..^^

if ur present is not included..dun worry..i will post at the next post..haha...

and nw..turn to my life after the cny..i had been be busying for the presentation, assignment..and all the bla bla bla bla..haha..and a midterm exam..so tired..everyday work like a bull..so sienz..and after the break..i will b havin my next midterm exam..and tmr i gt labtest actually..haha..nw..still blogging..omg..and break..i willl be having the business proposal..i tin i will not upload my blog frequently..unless i am nt tired..haha..
today..we had our food testing today..quite ok with everything nw..hope everythings go smoothly..GAMBATEH~~ and for shinhong tmr basketball games..1314Jiayou!!

白色情人节。。

2010-03-14T15:58:00.001+08:00

今年的情人节因为和新年一起过。。所以白色情人节也比较受瞩目。。其实每一个月的情人都有情人节。。这是一个好朋友前几年讲的。。

14/1-日记情人节 Diary Day
在这一天，情侣们会互赠足够纪录一整年恋爱情事的日记本，以此象征两人将携手走过未来一年，并留下更多美好回忆。新的一年的开始，对自己喜欢的人要有表白和计划，写在自己的日记本里，在心中撒下爱的种子。

14/2-华仑亭情人节 Valentine`s Day
西元3世纪时，罗马皇帝为避免已婚男子不愿离家当兵，发布了一道禁止结婚的法令，但华仑亭主教依旧违背皇帝旨意，秘密为青年人举行婚礼。他因此遭到监禁，并於西元273年2月14日死在狱中。后人为了纪念他，将他殉难这天订为「华仑亭日」，后来便成为世人耳熟能详的情人节。

14/3-白色情人节 White Day
一开始，3月14日是没有名字的，与2月14日一样都叫做“情人节”。后来，人们为了把两个节日区分开来，便将3月14日定为“白色情人节”。
白色在欧洲国家看来是纯洁、清纯、有灵性的，就好像年轻的少女一般，就像西方人结婚要穿白色婚纱。这便成为了“白色情人节”名称的重要来源之一。因为逐渐的流传与发展，“白色”所代表的更是期盼与幸福，是对恋人的祝福。
相传，2月14日，男孩送女孩给礼物（一般为玫瑰花和巧克力）。经过一个月的考虑和考察，到了3月14日，如果女孩回赠男孩礼物（一般送纯手工曲奇），就表示女孩认可男孩，可以谈恋爱了

14/4-黑色情人节 Black Day
“黑色情人节”就是属于单身贵族们的情人日。在前两个月他们或许既没收到甜蜜小礼物，也没人可以送巧克力，但这天，大家共聚一堂，彼此鼓励、加油打气，化悲愤为力量，倒也热热闹闹十分开怀，藉此消除形单影只的落寞感。
在这一天，打算过节的人会让自己生活在百分百的黑色世界里，穿黑色套装、黑帽子、黑皮鞋，吃黑豆制成的面条，喝咖啡也不加奶精，享受黑咖啡的苦涩原味。
“黑色情人节”是一个土生土长的韩国节日，它是为单身青年准备。按照传统，单身男女这一天会吃拌有黑色酱汁的炸酱面，“黑色情人节”由此得名。

14/5-黄色与玫瑰情人节 Yellow & Rose Day
如果已经到了5月，你的情事还是没有任何进展，在这一天穿着黄色衬衫或黄色套装，吃黄色咖哩饭，就是告诉大家「I am still available」的最好暗示。春日融融，将黄色穿在身上，也相当符合季节气氛。 5月是玫瑰发芽的时节，气候宜人适合出游，因此许多情侣都选在这天相偕到户外踏青，所以5月14日也有「玫瑰情人节」之称。

14/6-亲吻情人节 Kiss Day
卿卿我我的日子，爱恋中的人在夏日增进感情的日子, 或许你的初吻就在这一天交换给了对方,或许你们因为这一天偶尔的流星雨的到来而海誓山盟..
一个大大的kiss.
寄语：山无陵, 江水为竭, 冬雷震震, 夏雨雪, 天地合, 乃敢与君绝。

14/7-银色情人节 Sliver Day
是把你的意中人带回家给老爸老妈认识，或介绍给其他你所尊敬的长辈的好机会。当然，这一天的全部开销，都由这些“可爱的长辈”买单，但是你最好先确定长辈对这个节日很熟悉。银色情人节也是爱侣互赠银制礼品，饰物的日子。传统习俗是用银戒订婚，所以今天你们也去买一对，戴在手上，作为甜蜜心情的见证。

14/8-绿色情人节 Green Day
绿色情人节，当然和蓊郁的森林脱不了关系。酷热难耐的夏日午后，不妨和你的另一半作一趟清爽而清新的森林之旅，尽情享受户外大自然，度过健康而愉快的一天。还在寻觅爱侣的人，可以参加Soju〈韩国绿牌薯酒〉派对，度过喧闹的室内绿色情人节。

14/9-音乐与相片情人节 Music & Photo Day
音乐情人节这一天是举办大型社交活动，轻歌曼舞的日子，也是将你的心上人介绍给朋友，同事认识的好机会。而单身一族，更可以借此机会看看活动现场有没有自己中意的对象。许多情侣喜欢在这天就这蔚蓝晴朗的天空合影，所以9月14日又称为“相片情人节”。

14/10-葡萄酒情人节 Wine Day
这一天恋人们轻啜葡萄美酒，庆祝充满诗意的秋天。通常小两口会选择在浪漫且别致的餐厅里共进晚餐，然后聊聊彼此对未来的规划，以及共同的目标等话题。

14/11-橙色与电影情人节 Orange Day Movie Day
对于这个节日其实没有什么传说，只是一般在这个时候，男女双方两个人都孤独寂寞或者两个中的一个人感到孤独寂寞，便可以在这一天名正言顺的找到自己心仪却不能走到一起，或者曾经相恋不幸分开，或者单相思、双相恋的那个人，陪伴自己去影院看一场期待很久亦或值得去回忆的电影，找到幻境中的感觉或者曾经一同看电影的感觉，电影结束即宣告约会的结束，没有晚餐，没有浪漫，有的可能是释然，也或是酸楚……
这一天情侣们可以连赶两场电影,看完后.来杯柳橙汁吧。
电影票寄语：曾经相恋、单恋，只在银幕一闪，时光流逝不倒转，不得不忘记爱恋

14/12-拥抱情人节 Hug Day
想和你的情人抱多久都可以，在公开的场合拥抱，向世人宣告你俩的爱意，也让寒冷的冬天变得格外温馨。尤其是那些甜甜蜜蜜庆祝过2月14日华伦亭情人节的情侣，到了年底依然能热情拥抱，也见证了两人情意如昔。
拥抱情人节又叫校园情人节, 这个目前是民间的一种说法。到底这个校园情人节的来源还有待考证。

众所周知，玫瑰象征着爱情，但是并不是每一朵玫瑰，每一种色彩的玫瑰都象征爱情。你或许会见到很多种颜色的玫瑰，他们代表着不同的话语，虽同是玫瑰，却意义千差万别。

白玫瑰表示仍犹豫未决，象征着天真、纯洁、尊敬、谦卑、我足以与你相配，白玫瑰也有其它代表花语：
1、尊敬
2、不被注意(不为人知)的美
3、诚实
4、纯纯的爱
5、甘心为你付出所有
6、高贵
7、智慧
红玫瑰代表倾诉爱意，也象征着热情、热爱、热恋、希望与你泛起激情爱，红玫瑰花语：

1朵：你是我的唯一 2朵：世界上只有你和我 3朵：我爱你 4朵：誓言、承诺 5朵：无悔 6朵：顺利 7朵：喜相逢 8朵：弥补 9朵：长相守、坚定 10朵：十全十美 11朵：一心一意的爱 12朵：全部的爱 13朵：暗恋 14朵：骄傲 15朵：守住你的人
粉红玫瑰：初恋、求爱、爱心与特别的关怀
橙玫瑰：羞怯、献给你一份神秘的爱
黄玫瑰象征着说再见，也代表着不贞、嫉妒、欢乐、高兴、道歉
绿玫瑰：纯真简朴、青春长驻、我只钟情你一个
蓝玫瑰“蓝色妖姬”的花语：敦厚、善良.
单枝蓝色妖姬花语：相守是一种承诺．
双枝蓝色妖姬花语：相遇是一种宿命，心灵的交汇让我们有诉不尽的浪漫情怀；
三枝蓝色妖姬,花语：你是我最深的爱恋，希望永远铭记我们这段美丽的爱情故事。
紫玫瑰：忧郁、梦幻、爱做梦
黑玫瑰：你是恶魔、且为我所有
捧花玫瑰，也是可以是新娘花束：代表着幸福之爱

很好奇为什么我今天为什么那么无聊。。呵呵。。因为情人节？？可能吧。。这也是单身的坏处。。因为没有人陪。。所以。。闷在家。。哈哈。。
相识相知相爱相恋。。那是多么老套，可是每个人都得经历的旅程。。
祝有情人..恩恩爱爱。。没情人或“复杂”人士。。也加加油哦。。

新年。。我是怎样过。。part3~still with my bufday story........^^

2010-03-13T11:59:00.000+08:00

the 5th day of cny..Chu wu~~

my chinese bufday..haha..bring a happy and joyful heart went to have a trip to dong zhan si..

haha...

go to see my photo at fb..there are lots of photos...

and we arrived muar at almost 1am..

when i came down from bus..my 2nd auntie said happy bufday to me o....

all my family members who was goin together with me..haha..^^

the 6th day of cny..chu liu..my bufday.........

wat i had done it??i acc my sis and mother to mlc..to new jusco..tis is the 2nd time i went..i love tis..it is so beautiful..and attractive to me..as tis year valentine is celebrate together with cny..

about 6smtg i tin..we went bek le..nite time??

no celebration......jus went to my small fish hse..and tat was the end of my bufday..

do you tat..in 365 days..the most important day to me..is my bufday..bcus i care tis day more than every day..but tis year..i chose to make myself staying at home....bcus suddenly i felt hate to face everything tat outside my room..everything look real..but all the things are nt real de..i afraid i will believe everthing again and got lied again..i afraid to get hurt again..i afraid i owez suspect myself am i doin smtg stupid?am i doin smtg wrong??

anyway..i would lik to say tq to..those people who write comment at my wall..

1. Peifen 2. Aikjiang 3. teann 4. Richard 5. Chuayang 6. Yion 7. Jiamin 8. Shaowei 9. Hweeying 10. Huiting 11. Siewhsien 12. Nicholas 13. Geokcher 14. Xueli 15. Yy 16. Menghwee 17. Lawrence 18. Julie 19. Jyan 20. Fyeng 21. Ron 22. Dear(wanting) 23. Joan 24. Kelly 25. Xinyi 26. Qianqi 27. Eilleen 28. Soochien 29. Eileen 30. Ooijing 31. Farah Ismail 32. Peisi 33. Jocelyn 34. Xiaotian 35. Foong 36. Junhao 37. Yinyeh 38. Peiki39. Stella (a bei) 40. Liang wei 41. Peiqing 42. Lingjanet 43. Yeereen 44. Yingying 45. Chew min 46. Aikjiang again~ 47. Yi teng 48. Jeremy

For thro` phoning and sms-ing..

1) Mother 2) Cheayee 3) Chiowsian 4) Yeereen 5) Giat

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1) 2nd fish 2) Jiamin 3) 3rd fish 4) Small fish 5) Yeereen 6) Angela 7) Zihoong 8) Kiayang 9) Kelyn 10) Chiowsian 11) Yeechiet 12) Geokcher 13) Shinhong 14) Huiting 15) Esther 16) Melissa 17) Jingwei 18) Lihui 19) Sooling 20) Leeshi 21) Marvin 22) Yiwen 23) Yeeting 24) Chiungee

i am very happy as u all still remember my bufday..~tQ~haha..^^

i will post out my last part other days..as i am busying smtg nw..hehe..sorry a..
to be continued.............

你相信？？

2010-03-13T03:17:00.001+08:00

你相信友情。。不会有被嫌弃的一天吗？？我早已不懂要不要去相信。。好多好多事情发生了。。而我却不懂如何去说去释怀。。我努力地告诉自己是幻觉，但其实自己知道。。以为一切继续下去就会没事，可是我错了。。我们之间不再如此。。我发现你开始排斥我了。。或许你觉得没有，只是请你认真问你自己到底有没有。。我感觉到好多次了。。很久了，只是我压着自己说，如果你讲，你就会破坏一切，甚至于失去现在所用有的，我希望我说的全部都不是事实。。我的第六感。。有时候让我害怕。。因为害怕所感觉到的东西真的从别人的口中出现。。感觉。。我一点也不想记起。。那是什么。。很可惜，每当夜深时，我就会记起。。又是我太敏感了吗？？
不过我懂了我不该为任何一些改变不了的事实去执着，或许说当有一天世界面临末日时，我不会什么也没有。。因为至少曾经我有回忆，有记忆。。

最近好忙。。忙到我都不记得时间，忙到我没回家，明天。。大姨一家要来。。我又没有看到他们了。。考试功课上课麻烦一罗罗。。真是很想骂脏话。。XXXX。。一个星期的假期泡汤。。喝茶拖延。。就连。。blogblog的时间也没有。。
最近迷上了刘子千的玫瑰，刺陵的歌曲和黄小琥的没那么简单。。很喜欢歌的歌词。。

风微微吹过，我好想念爱情的脚印。。。。。。。。。你又落脚于何处？

jus for 2 ppl who are special....to me..

2010-03-06T15:20:00.001+08:00

maybe everything wat i said now..it's too late for you all..but what i say nw..is smtg i had been keeping it for 3 years..

2010-02-27....

在那么热的下午。。我不知道自己为什么有感而发。。突然想写一直以来欠一些人的话。。是关于爱情和友情的。。

或许大家觉得我一直以来都给予不一样的爱情论文，甚至有一些很荒谬，但是我想说的是，就是因为我的曾经已经带给我。。无限的感慨，好的坏的美的丑的香的臭的烂的。。甚至是虚幻的感觉。曾经的曾经。。我遗忘了。。我的初恋我的单恋我的暗恋我的依恋。。

直到我生日的那天，我朋友送的礼物中的信件，卡片。。。。里头密密麻麻的一笔一画。。

大家认识我十几年了吧。。应该知道我不擅于说我自己对你们的内心话，除非真的没办法。。或许有时更会用伪装的表情带过一切。。因为在我的世界里，伪装带我逃过了不少伤心难过的事，有时候我真的很想跟你们说，但是却总是有阻挡的原因，让我不得不伪装把一切埋葬起来，把一切的一切收回。。

请原谅我今天选择在这里告诉你们。。因为即使到了今天，对于当年发生的事，我知道我自己还是没办法说给你们听。。或许这些年来，每当想起来，大家都会选择沉默，只是因为怕伤害到我的玻璃心。。当年你们并没有错，爱情里没有对错，你们选择把一切都隐瞒起来，只是为了保护我的心。。但是你们却没有想到那却带给我更大的伤害，当我和他没缘在一起时，已经很伤心，然后心里还挂着怀疑好朋友的心情又要小心翼翼偷偷摸摸地探查事情的真相再加上学业的压力。。你们认为当我自己查到一切的真相后，我受到的打击有多大吗？我生气是因为一，你们没告诉我事情，二，你们还撒谎骗我，三，你们让我觉得我是一个不可以信任的朋友。。不过，我也因为你们是因为爱我，怕我受伤的心而气消了。。

那么多年以来，我们之间或许因为那件事后，有了一个小小的裂缝的存在，LS，我不否认，不是你敏感，而是这个问题是存在的，只是我们没有人愿意再提起这件事，因为我们的感情是如此的坚固密切，你们感觉到不管谁开口，我都会再次忆起那些事，或许更会再次造成第二次伤害。。

因为重视，受伤害的程度一定比较高，痊愈的时间也需要比较多。。

因为当时我的心已不停地流着血，当再知道一切后，我真的崩溃了，我没有办法承受流着血的心再次被轻轻的触碰。。哪怕只是一下下。。

给经常把我爱你挂在嘴边的你：

抚心自问，从以前到现在，“我们”在我们的生命中有着重量级的存在，你觉得我这几年来心里有没有你们？？我早在不生气那一刻不再耿耿于怀你们的欺骗，我耿耿于怀的是。。你们对我的相信去了哪里。真挚的友情。。是不去怀疑，只有相信。。

如果当年不是你，而是其他人，我相信我会直接永远不想再见这个人，但因为是你，我选择原谅，我选择不再忆起，因为在我眼里，你们就是你们，没有任何事、任何人、任何决定能改变你们在我心中的地位，一辈子也只有交心交命的你们，能得到这永不变的承诺。。你们应该知道我不随便承诺任何人，我的承诺，我会做到，哪怕是要一条命。。我相信如果现在我们的生命受到威胁，而只有两个人能幸存，我们都不愿意生存下来，因为生活下来的那两个一定比死去的那个还要痛苦，这是我相信的，你们呢？？我很好奇我们的答案是否一样。。

你们从来不会忘记我交朋友的原则：出卖与背叛。这是我的禁地。。那件事情，我知道你们那是保护我的表现，只是不想让我更加地悲伤，所以那年我所说的话，我没有忘记，我知道大家心里都不好受，我知道这些年来当你们提起他的时候是多么地小心。。有一些事或许我没有说，但并不表示我不知道。。而是有时候，我并不想说。。我承诺的事情我不会忘记。。但也请你们记住我现在所说的话，这是我最后一次讲这事，从今以后，不管发生什么事，大家都不必在意了。。

# ￥ # ￥晴_菱魂的陌路之锁梦魂 # ￥ # ￥

爱情是平等的，没有谁对谁错，没有公平不公平，没有谁付出多或少，只有愿意与不愿意及命运缘份的机会。。那样才是真正的幸福。。

在这段感情里，我没有想过我和他会不会在一起，我只想公平竞争，这就是我一开始就犯的错，我曲折了爱情的真理。当知道你们隐瞒的一切，我更感觉世界的尽头好似快来临了。。当爱情和友情同一时间撞到时，对于我这个极端的人很难不发脾气，很抱歉我当时的冲动，但是如果重来，我依然会如此，没有一个人不会难过，不会不想发脾气，更何况是。。那么重视友情的我。

其实，我只是接受不了这个事实，虽然这件事不至于严重到背叛与出卖，但在当时我的眼中，我的愤怒已经浅浅地被激起，简直把一切当成是与出卖的程度差不多。。随后的一星期，冷静和理智也逐渐回来了，我理清一切，决定放下一切，包括放下所有的事，回到当时，但或许有裂痕了，我们的友情开始了不一样的旅程，但这些年，我知道我很在意，也知道这样会伤害你们，但是我已经很很克制我自己了。。我已经把对大家的伤害降到最低了，但我没想到我害怕的终究还是影响了。。我不想去解释，因为我相信我们的感情不会被影响，而且我不想再正视一切，不过既然你们提了，那我就解释清楚。。

在短期内把爱情全掏空出来，我做不到，即使是之后，我还是一点一点地掏空。。既然三年前，我选择放下一切，那我就会。。

一年后的那个三月，你们的事情，我忘了，因为我相信我们的友情被打散后，依然会回到原点。。而那时，我下定决心，终于，我做到了，我放下了。。放下对他的感情，放下对他一切的关心。。放下那三月的邂逅。。那无缘的爱情。。

今天，我和他已经是陌生人。。但我们依然是好朋友，我想对你们说谢谢。。因为没有你们，我不会恢复得那么快，虽然真的生气你们，但是保护的心却在，尽管事隔多年，你们还是小心翼翼，尽量每次见面不提他，免得我心碎。。就让一切的一切付诸于水，曾经。。谁对谁错，都忘了吧。。因为那已不能改变任何一切，就当是对“我们”的警惕，警告我们发生任何事时，都不可以隐瞒，而且我希望你们的事以后不是从别人的嘴里得知，我不想同样的事情再发生在我们的身上，记住了。。我不想再重复我所说的话。。最好一次就记上来。。

此时此刻，为我们的友情奋斗到最后。。加油！！

*晴天_菱魂的陌路，象征，雨后的晴天将引领你的灵魂前往不一样的陌生路程。。*

新年。。我是怎样过。。part2~my bufday........

2010-03-01T10:33:00.001+08:00

my sis and i..tat we took in my grandma hse.. the sunset of kukup..such a beautiful scenery..

during the 2nd day of cny which is chu er..we went to kukup at 9 am..Kukup is near.......erm...i 4gt le..i tin it is quite near with pekan nanas..after arriving..we start our lunch..after 2 hours, we ate the high tea time..haha..we went to kukup to eat,drink and play..and my family members went to the pasar malam bout 6pm..we had bbq as our dinner..it was bout..9pm..we jus had our dinner..bcus the family tat lived behind our home was late today..they were having the same ppl to cook for them..tats y we had our dinner late..bcus they had their lunch and high tea time late..

When having dinner..those who live bside us..were playin fire crackers..look lik it is.........free..they played the fire crackers for whole night..tat 1 box of fire crackers can b play for 1 times..den they had been playing for whole night..can u imagine tat hw many hundred and thousand had been flying to the sky althought it is very beautiful..haha......

the 3rd of the cny..chu san..

we went bek home from kukup..and i was too tired..and i din attend the limteh party which organised by achan..sorry, gers..sorry for cannt attend it..paiseh.......at night, we went to grandma hse..

the 4th of cny,chu si..i went out with frens..haha..we went to bai nian..and..s hong...playing the driver role for today whole day..until tonight 10pm..haha..as they celebrated my bufday together at moli also....haha..and s hong went to buy cake secretly..he went to secret recipe..haha..the door paste a paper with the cake went sold out and they will jus arrived on 18/2/10..hahahahaha..but he brought a small cake from fung seng..haha.....really appreciate his 细心..but we quarrel for whole night..those who attending for my party were 8 gers and boys..zhoong,csian,cyee,jinrong,marvin,shong and kyang..plus me..so is 8..

we took photo by turn and around 9.30pm, they just ask the waiter to bring out the cake..and the bufday was played by the boss.......=.=!!and whole moli ppl noe i am celebrating my bufday....

=> the 1st bufday card i received from kheng which is at overseas..tq..love u ..muaks..

<= the cake tat brought by the s hong and k yang..

my forever frens..they are the 1 who really remember for my bufday without any notifications o reminders..they will remember my bufday and make many surprise for me..haha..muaks..^^

the 3 guys sitting in front is the 3 man tat i believe in my whole life..haha..altot i owez quarrel with s hong..but tat is our lifestyle..jin rong..altot we din contact each other oftenly..but the frenship tat we had will nt b fade..while marvin..go ahead if u tin can..

my 1st present tat i received..is from jin rong..all the small fish..

the present tat i gt it from all sisters and tis..........make me clean my room until 3am.......but tis is the big surprise for me..then i decide to tell them i din short of any tins next year..cus 2 years ago..i received 50 sheet of Rm1..from them also........a beautiful HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! i lik it very much..haha..i appreciate hw tough u all nid to do my present as i really din short of any tin..by using the space time after cutting down the time for schooling, tuitioning, sukan, and examing..

tis is the present from marvin............8GB of kingston pendrive..omg....

To be continued.......................................................

新年。。我是怎样过。。part1~

2010-02-22T00:17:00.001+08:00

拜天赐~~
我阿母和阿爸还有猪姐和猪妹。。在拜天赐。。
有拜寿桃，柚子，水果，发糕，黄金条，红龟糕。。。。。。还有舞龙叻。。今年一定还有表演的啦~~我要回家啦。。怎么我不会驾车。。也没有车。。
好想念。。去年的今天。。我玩到一两点~~
今年。。自己一个人在马六甲早早睡。。红炮，烟花却响不停。。闷~~

来讲讲除夕。。今年初一。。
今年除夕烟花乱炸。。孔明灯飞来飞去。。红炮一条接一条。。不过不是我家。。呵呵。。
和以往一样。。拜神。。然后嘛。。当然是例行活动咯~~到半夜两点。。我就fbing一下。。
隔天，早上九点起来，大姑一家来，我啊。。才刚刚要吃完早餐还没有换美美叻。。就快快换衣拜年咯。。要12点后就去外婆家拜年。。二姨一家和三姨一家已经到了。。然后。。还有更奇迹的是。。。。豪哥也有来叻。。（因为很久很久没有看到他了。。）
过后，就去Dr.Lim家拜年吃buffet。。吃完后，又回去阿嬷家，拍照看戏茶会。。
晚上就去马舅家。。到十点全部就回我家继续大战。。到一点。。因为。。大家还没准备好明天的龟咯之旅。。KUKUP 啦。。两天一夜。。就早一点回去收东西。。
我也收拾收拾一下。。冲凉睡觉。。幸好我的衣服和那些小东西早早下午因为睡不着就收好咯。。所以可以不用那么忙~~

再续。。

我的新年..

2010-02-20T02:58:00.000+08:00

我的新年也是意味着我老一岁的日子快到了。。往年。。我很喜欢庆祝我的生日。。我都是和几个朋友出去大肆庆祝。。而今年。。我忽然不想庆祝。。这是我从来都没有的感觉。。今年的我。。老实说，就连和你们出去。。如果不是你们安排同一天，我相信我一定会不想庆祝。。很少人记得我的生日。。因为生日每一年碰上新年。。
献给:晓璇，旭红，佳艺，俊隆，Marvin，星泓和嘉洋。。
谢谢你们陪我度过我今年的第一个生日party。。也谢谢旭红，晓璇和佳艺。。你们的礼物，今年真的很很很用心。。比起前年的。。今年真的简直是小巫见大巫。。今年的你们。。真的让我哭了。。你们知道我从来没有想过，你们那么忙。。那么忙。。还要花时间来完成这份礼物。。真的是千言万语。。我不知从何说起。。
还有。。我想我告诉你们：
#三年前年那份心中的痛。。不是你们造成的，但是。。你们的隐瞒却在我心中的那被受伤的伤口上撒盐。。或许我在你们面前真的好像难以释怀。。但是其实我已经算了。。早在我知道后，我已不再生气了。。只是未完全愈合的伤口。。我却无法避免有时不伤害到别人。。如果伤到你们，对不起。。那个男人也算他上辈子修福，这一世搞到人家吵架。。我想说的是当我的爱情来临时，我眼中容不下一粒沙子，心中更容不下任何理由让我去选择爱与不爱,我要求的爱是独一无二的爱，是简单只有属于我的爱，没有任何附加条件。。那时的我不够成熟，不明白这个道理。。所以让大家放开吧。。#
*星泓。。你。。虽然很爱和你吵架。。但是还是要谢谢细心的你买了一个蛋糕给我庆祝生日。。因为连我都忘了要买蛋糕。。而你。。真的是。。哈哈。。谢谢~~*
@俊隆，你要好好照顾你自己。。生病了要多喝水。。谢谢你。。送我今年的第一份礼物。。很多little fish。。我真的很喜欢。。我以为你忘了我的生日。。@
~鱿鱼。。你送的礼物。。还像有一点贵hor。。我记得我有叫你不要买礼物。。你怎么好像没听到我讲的话。。谢谢你的笔驾，我收到了~

今年我度过很多事。。快乐高兴难过伤心喜怒哀乐，新年前，新年后，新年那天。。就连那份感觉。。我好像也忘了。。
下一次再接着说，累了。。晚安~~

recently..................

2010-02-09T22:36:00.001+08:00

long time din blogging le..i was too lazy and also tired to blog..haha..cus the 3rd sem jus start..a lots of hmwrk and assignment nid to prepare..and today ..i stayed at sku for 8 hours..without going bek..same as other DE10..as we gt the cls from 8am to 12noon..and 3pm to 5pm..while the time from the 12noon to 3pm..we used that time to discuss our assignment for ms cherrie lo..aiseh..if she din cum out with tis assignment..maybe we will be more relax..and a lot of tins wont b happen for today..haiz..
the cny is cumin..haha..cus i am going to many places..and got many kinds of foods to eat..can meet all frens also..wear new clothes..^^
and many events for my cny ya..haha..
but den..in the cumin mon..my 1st presentation ~business management~for my tis sem..
i mus complete all the work b4 tis week goin bek..so tat i can hav a nicer holiday and cny..altot it is full of travelling,dates and events..haha..
maybe tis is the last blog b4 the cny..haha..cus i am busying with my presentation and the preparation for new year..haha..
so wish u all HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 1st..^^

咳嗽了。。

2010-02-03T09:26:00.000+08:00

上课咳咳咳咳不会停。。一直那样。。haiz。。
这就是吃太多的结果。。完蛋了啦~~
新年要到了呐。。我的声音。。好性感................
最近刚上课。。好像很累很累。。可是又咳咳咳咳。。真的很xxx的。。辛苦到半命。。不果可怜我的roomate。。每个晚上。。我一睡不好，就会咳咳咳咳。。^^
不过。。谢谢小yengyeng。。有载我们去吃。。顺便买。。京都念慈菴川贝枇杷膏。。好很多咯。。
所以呢。。警戒我们什么~~不要再乱吃东西了。。xP

昨晚。。吃一个晚餐花了3 个小时多。。去到一个叫。。叫。。kokiya的日本餐。。我忘了名字。。起先是去sakura house。。可是到了的时候那个人跟我们讲。。没位了，要定位的。。

也不知道为什么今天一早就一直很想blog。。可是有不知道要写什么。。^^

holiday........byebye~~

2010-02-01T09:56:00.002+08:00

T.T..sob...no holiday le.....1 week had gone......bye..my holiday..
still statisfied with it..but too short le la....
finish my EST life..and fat also..
my sound is very sexy too..hahaa..yesterday night duno gt disturb my roomate o nt..she nid to wake up so earlier today..yet i kept on coughing ystdy nite..

today..monday....black monday....later gt cls...12 to 1pm..
my 1st lecture..accounting....Gambateh for tis sem..
to all my dear frens~lets us hav nice 2 weeks..b4 we go for our cny~!!hav a nice day for today ya~~

这几天，行程都不一样了。。

2010-01-30T01:40:00.001+08:00

我的行程被打乱了。。不过，无所谓啦。。只是可惜没见到璇和GP FRATERNITY 的姐妹，就差那么一点。。因为两个晚上出去喝茶，一个晚上吃宵夜。。今晚没有去走夜市。。很热闹一下的呐~~很多小贩。。都在卖新年的东西。。
今晚出去喝茶的时候，遇上yreen和yying。。更没想到。。会遇上jeremy。。他也变了，有点认不出。。还有很多人啦。。只是我和jeremy嘛。。很久没联络了。。自从我换msn后。。

献给shinhong。。
生日快乐~~
虽然没办法今天和你庆祝。。但是还是想在我的部落格上跟你说。。
这些年来。。很谢谢你的容忍和礼让。。我们认识的时间也好久了吧。。从三年级开始。。从不熟到。。到。。满熟。。呵呵。。很失败的我，认识你那么多年竟然还没有很了解你。。haiz。。真失败。。
认真想想。。你啊。。除了比较犹豫不决外。。你也算是一个很优秀的男生。。我知道你的个性有在改啦。。以后嫁给你的人会有很大的福气。。因为那么多年了，你还是一样。。有时候啊。。我觉得你是一个很好的聆听者。。不管我说什么，我叽叽喳喳不停。。你还是在听我讲。。我怕依赖你的耳朵惯了。。以后很难找那么好的聆听者呐...........
我希望你。。永远幸福快乐。。只要你认为快乐，那就是我这个好朋友的快乐。。所以切记：新的一岁，新的希望，新的学期，但旧的你，要很幸福，要更快乐。。加油加油！！

今晚的我格外感触。。
爱情。。友情。。亲情。。
或许人随着年龄的增加会越变越会想。。最近，脾气出奇地不好。。别问我为什么。。因为我自己也不知道。。
感情。。最近很多朋友陷入热恋。。祝你们长久~~
但也很多失恋。。不过。。我想说：你们要加油。。下一个会更好~~
至于自己呢。。erm。。我觉得呢。。我啊啊啊啊。。。。。。。如此如此，这般这般。。
友情。。很开心。。思韵。。我真的好久好久没有那样和你们聊天了。。哈哈。。今晚很开心。。而且，谢谢你们全部赏脸。。我jio。。你们全到。。哈哈。。因为在马六甲啊，我啊。。在家，去学校。。就这样，偶尔也有出去玩啦。。但是我没有你和ching yueh那样。。
每逢佳节倍思亲。。听过吧。。佳节的来临让我很怀念以前的日子。。想想在另一个天国的你们。。还好吗？？岁月不饶人。。如果你没有尽过一点孝道。。我想现在的你应该去想想你和长辈间的关系。。你应该想想自己付出了多少的关心。。哪怕就一点点。。

假期快结束了。。我又要恢复那段生活了。。加油~~

10-01-27..wednes..

2010-01-28T10:21:00.000+08:00

去剪头发了。。不知不觉。。新年快来临了。。这也意识了我快老一岁了。。昨天清理了整个楼上。。快累死了。。爬楼梯上下。。擦窗。。楼下还有9个窗啊。。真不知道前屋主是不是怕黑的。。装了那么多窗。。

给红和璇：谢谢你们抽空在那么忙的时间里依然忙着准备我的礼物。。其实，每一年你们每次问我要什么礼物的时候。。我真的已经很开心了，因为至少有你们记得我的生日。。这样就足够了。。因为，我真的什么都不缺。。只要有那份心意就可以了。。如果真的要给我一份礼物啊。。那你们就。。快快找你们的白马王子出来吧。。很简单的礼物叻~~你看我对你们几好。。几不刁难的礼物叻。。
去年。。你们送的那本“我们”。。已经花很多心思。。今年我真的只要简单。。
不知道为什么今年有点不想大肆庆祝。。连我都很好奇。。
我越来越发现简单很美。。有时候复杂只会搞砸事情。。因为越想越多。。

还有。。给两个某小姐和某先生。。（不用看别人，很明显就是你们两个。。）
这是我想告诉你们的话，你们的事情。。我该做的，该讲的也讲完了。。所以，你们想怎样发展下去都是你们家的事了。。不管你们要不要在一起，要不要分开，还是要打架吵架，还是怎样。。听：

汝俩切记，天注一切，两情相悦，实为有缘，
若有此缘，必是赐缘，月老赐缘，良缘红线，
愿为你俩，红线一牵，亦促佳人，乃一美事，
但若无意，既是无缘，尽管硬牵，红线必隔，
情意难全，倘若如此，汝俩勿悲，一切从愿
既乃无缘，也勿强求，别后再见，乃是朋友，
切记切记，爱友勿同，爱可一时，友却一世。

2010-01-25..mon~~

2010-01-27T23:46:00.001+08:00

a very tiring day..but meaningful for me..

today is my 1st time sat the bus went to KL..i woke up at 6.30am..and sat the 1st batch of bus..so earlier man..haha..with my sis and dear..

i sat with my dear, while my sis sat alone..

there is a couple..(i tin they are just dating..)

they are smaller than me..then..they are also the 1st time travel to kl by bus..(i din heard their conservation secretly..bcus they were talking loudly as whole bus ppl heard wat they said)

tat is nt the main problem as they talked loud..altot they disturbed me to hav a nice sleep..but the problem is they talked non-stop..tis made me headache and felt lik to kill ppl..after half hour..the girl started to shout suddenly..when 'xiao qiang' appeared..the girl was almost stand at her seat..then the boy..omg..omg..he said: 我去找救兵。。你等。。then my sis and we were having 3 black lines at our head..cus mr xiao qiang..is xiao xiao qiang..haha

after a few hours..we arrived.. and sat a taxi go to sunway..actually..we wanted to go to midvalley..

we had our breakfast at Macdonald..and after that, sis went to met her fren, evonne..while my dear and i went to shopping..i had brought a lot of tins..and spent a lot of money today..there are a lot of shoes..but i was wearing sport shoes today..

my baleno tshirt..

as i brought 1 set and my dear brought 1 set..

i cant find the tshirt i wan there..

tis is wat i found in the toilet..

hehe..^^

tis is wat i found when i was walking out from the toilet..

tis is a very beautiful piano..i owez hope i learn music since small..but i cannt afford to do tat..eventhought when i grow up..but i hope my bf will know some music..

i gt buy a pair of slippers..banana peel..i tin..for my sis..

i buy a shirt for my mama..let me show you..wat i got for myself..

i had brought a dinasour necklace from Diva..izit cute??

haha..i also brought another necklace from noraml stall..

besides that, i also brought a cookies..erm..i had brought 2oo gsm ..famous amos~~nice~~

dear also brought a beg..and some other tins..but less than me..more expensive than me..and the most important things was..she treated me the ice-cream..omg..the price..is very very expensive..but it was really good..and we gt the coupon and baucer for the ice-cream..so when cuming bek..we are planning for our next trip..haha..

it was meaningful trip for me as i am the 1st time sitting bus went to kuala lumpur..haha..

hOliDayhere i cum

2010-01-24T01:22:00.000+08:00

today is the 2nd day of my holiday..altot we jus have 1 week..........
so unfair..if compare to them..aiseh..but nvm la..who ask us so unlucky..meet such 'critical' time..
lets talk bout wat i am goin to do the only week..
erm..erm.....limteh..clean hse..cut hair..buy clothes..........omg..so many tins to do.................>.<
tmr(sun)..morning go to cut my hair..afternoon clean my hse..mon..nite time limteh..still wondering gt go to kl o nt..if gt..maybe nid to shift my limteh time to sun nite..aiyo..then csian will scold de le..
actually..i wan to limteh at fri nite..but then i remember u all gt tuition..so i move to thurs..but then..zhoong say she gt tt..ok lo..move again..tues..but i consider ur transport problem..so move again..then move move move move..until i duno wan when..tat is the reason i din tel u the date, time and venue..=.=
nt i duwan jio u all out la..for u 2 information..........if i nid to go kl..maybe..really nid to move the time again..haha.....^^
*p/s: i duwan cum out during day time..very hot le..i tak boleh tahan..cus i will lik after bathing..
tues..another date with my taiwan fren~candy..she had cum bek last week..but i was having exam..so din go out yamcha..
wednes..no yamcha..but maybe will go shopping with my mama..thurs..?? i leave it for my gang..Group Fraternity..but duno yet..still in planning..i tin i all had been missing..for almost 7 months..haha..12 ppl a gang..yeereen, esther, melissa, poh ye, chan, yeeying,yi wen, kheng, qiu yue,geokcher,vivian..really..mis u all..and mis the time we all owez gather at the pondok there..and when raining heavily..we all still nid to find other place to gather..^^
fri..with Group 17..yy,syee,sotong,a bei, ngee,shao wei, and my honey~enning..
sat nite..maybe reserved for shong..my mlc lover..haha..he is goin to bufday..maybe jus hav a small celebration for him..yaya..i would lik to thank him as he willing to acc for my econs..as i gt lots of duno a nd ask him b4 exam..it was bout 3 am..we discussed until 4.30am..he was just cuming bek from studying..hey guy..i really duno why i din fall in love with u..haha..u are really a nice man..u really.........make me speechless..altot sometime i really wan to K you..if minus and plus all the good and bad..u still in the list of good man~~
yesterday..specially thanks to qian qi for organising such a perfect party for jiamin..thankyou~~

time flies..a year had gone..as new year cum..i am goin to old..haha..
wishes for new year..haha..i will tel u ltr..very very simple tins for u all..haha..
tired le..wan to sleep le..nitez~~

2010-01-01..

2010-01-02T00:35:00.003+08:00

i will upload my 2009 next week..^^
my 1st day of 2010..it was totally full with fun..
actually suppose today i shuld go out with them..but all of them seen busy with other tins..so it was cancelled..
my cousins and i..went to gogo sing k today..from 1 to 5pm..after that, we went to buy the Italy egg tart..and eat `lulu`..then we went bek muar..erm..it was almost 8pm..after bathing, we all straight went to grandma hse for family gathering..so..today actually is the family days for all of us..
To: ychiet, yting, wting, alvin, kyang, janice, yhwee..
thanks for our tired driver..nid to fetch us here and there..hehe..and i really very happy for today..as it is a new start for my new life..
as for today..i really had a fun time..thankyou..
To: all my dearest frens which cancel the gathering today
as for u all..i noe we had been losing contact..as we all are busying with other things..but dun worry..our lao da is goin to bufday..shall we??

tomorrow..what i will be busy with??
i will be busying with the dessert of BBQ party for our family 1st gathering in 2010..
haha..tis is my lifestyle in muar..less on9..less play games..sleep more..play more..go out 'hiao' with family and frens..it was totally different from the me in mlc..haha..well..just a short post..i will upload more next week..haha..^^
~haPPy nEw YeaR~
Goodbye 2009..here i cum..my 2010..muaks..yeah~~

my 2009--

2010-01-01T01:46:00.207+08:00

2009年来到了尾声。。请恕小女现在才updated。。

Part 1：告别2008年来到2009年的我在努力地决定自己的人生。。那时候的自己很迷茫。。每每有开心或不开心的事都会写在日记簿上。。而送日记簿给我的人希望我写下我的喜怒哀乐，但是很可惜，他自己却没有这个习惯。。4年前，我的第一个音乐盒也是你送的。。我记得那时候是我们分后的第二年，你给我的礼物。。也是第一次你记得我生日的礼物。。呵呵。。你应该忘了这个故事。。不过，你小心哦。。我记着。。
在迎接新一年同时，我决定和他擦肩而过。。我不要那种拖拖拉拉的感觉，断然放手，回到原来。。同时，我获悉他也要离开这里了。。而JR也要去读书了。。顿时间失去两个重心点，生命就好像失去一些东西。。有点不习惯。。
*现在的我很庆幸我放手。。因为。。就庆幸。。当某些人看到时，就会很开心。。*

成绩放榜了。。我的成绩简直是。。。。。。。。。（无言）
我永远也不否认。。我不是勤劳的小孩。。。。

随后，因发生了头发因染色药水不符而导致头皮出现‘积水’和‘腐烂’的状况。。脸部严重红肿（像猪头一样，怕到不敢出门。。）看过医生后，就幸好没有什么细菌感染之类的，不然，我想。。大家不可能看到我在写部落格。。

第一次，改变了我的头发。。改了边。。
还是长头发的我。。

这是庆祝母亲节的照片。。我和我妈。。不像哦~~但是还有两个人比我不像。。呵呵。。

这位是sky。。

我们在ychiet buffet那晚拍的。。

wedding night, with my 2 partners..

准备上mmu的事务，也忙着做工赚钱。。

Part 2：

我生命中的另一个转交点

从中学到大学。。我生命中的第二个可以改变我的人生的另一个开始。。

大学。。选中了mmu。。老大以前读的。。为什么？？

一开始。。当我踏进时。。我就觉得这是我读书的归属地。。然而一切的开始并不如我心中所愿。。陌生的地方。。不一样的人。。但为了梦，我进入了这间大学。。梦的开始。。2009年6月6日。。表姐结婚后的那一天。。尽管再累。。还是得出席。。朋友也认识了rui ying, agnes 和yingyee..

上了大学。。我的个性变了。。认识以前的我的人。。会真正感觉到我的变化。。

想谢谢两个人。。一路陪我的两个dear。。如果没有你们，我相信我会走得很累。。

为了改变自己，我换了个发型。。短发。。把要五年的头发剪掉了。。

我相信大家不会记得那时候的我。。只记得现在的我~~

在这里。。

认识了很多朋友。。而形成了不同个性的DE10 成员。。DE10的成员个性全部天差地远。。为什么大家可以组在一起哦。。令人难以相信。。这就是缘份的天空

在还没结束我的2009前，我和yuki出去了。。

谈起了往事。。用了很淡很淡的语气说完了全部的故事。。

曾经某个人告诉我：讲得很容易，做的时候却很难。。

但我想告诉大家：难不难靠的是你自己的决心和恒心。。
当你决意要放弃时，谁也阻止不了你，相对的，当你坚持要和一个人在一起，爱情将排山倒海而来。。

相信我。。因为我就是这样过来的。。也许因为这个信念。。我放弃了不属于自己的幸福快乐，虽然用了很多时间，但经过两次不是完全失败的恋爱经验，我懂了我要的是什么。。

晴菱未编的爱情奏章：

曾经的爱情。。是曾经。。努力拥有的爱情

现在的爱情。。是现在。。珍惜拥有的爱情

未来的爱情。。是未来。。希望拥有的爱情

QianQi 买的~~

这个是jingwei买的。。

这是angela买的。。

这是我2009年最后的一份外来礼物~~

但愿。。你们都掌握了自己的幸福，因为那才是我的快乐。。不管是前任，家人，姐妹，朋友，敌人，擦肩而过的。。我只要你们记住。。你的幸福才是我的快乐。。加油吧！！

the last day for my 2009..31-12-09

2009-12-31T07:02:00.001+08:00

1st of all..sorry for no update my blog as i am preparing my last 2 presentation for tis sem..which is my eng and pca..wondering why i haven sleep for so `early`..

for ur information, the time nw is 5.26am..the morning of 31-12-09..my special night..

actually..i had my sleep earlier just nw..from 8.30pm to 2.33am..haha..

Where should i start my story o....

start from the christmas eve..i had it with my 3 lovers..my cousin and chia wei..at my dear hse..

we all having bbq tat nite..i bullied s hong..asked him to bbq the foods for me..

he is a nice ppl..i always bully him..but his lover..is `better` at this than me..^^

but marvin and jr din attend as both of them very busy..

we sat at my dear hse `keng gai` until almost 1am as all the parents called..

the next day morning..we all woke up at 9.30am and went to nan ji to hav our breakfast..

kelian de shinhong,kiayang and chiawei..as they are `forced` by my dear dear de..especially shin hong and kiayang..the 2 ppl who wake up late..and this is the 1st time cs stay at my hse..(all photos are uploaded at my facebook)

on saturday, i had done some cookies with my cousin..^^

altot the look is not so nice..it tasted good..but the amount of the cookies are limited..but it is just enough for the amamosa gathering..

And..Ting ting did the guo dong at KL..i was wondering how she had done it..haha..i msn asked her on mon..she answered that: diabetes..( as this is her 1st attempt..the result i think is ok le..)

On sunday..we all went to gogo sing k..5 ppl for 5 hours..^^

after singing..our sounds were so `sexy` ..yc, keong, wt, ky and me..[ i tin the next day..all the mama will nag at yc as she was the head..they arrived muar at 1 smtg after sending us bek..]

My timetable for tis week is quite loose..as the long sem wan to finish...

my pca..just left with the exam and presentation

my eng..some grammar work hvn finished and the presentation on next tues..

my ppe..1 chapter to go..and the exam..[the hardest subject among all]

my phd..all presentation and courseworks all finish..just left with exam..

my moral..the most expensive but also the stupiest subject..and that GOOD moral agent-vemala..[omg..hard to believe that i had learn ntg from her except the knowledge on eating breakfast..lunch..high tea........]

On mon..i was doing ntg..just EST and Fbing..and watching drama..

On tuesday..peikin,qq,erica,jiamin,fuiyeng and a peng had their econs presentation..

they had a beautiful slide and it is related with their questions..The other group also very good..

P/S : Sorry to the ppl who i accidentaly din take into the scene..SORRY..i am not purpose..i dunno deny my skills are totally out..SORRY..

[next time dun ask me to take photo for u all la..i am nt good with taking pic with ppl..]

While on my wednes..marvin came to melacca...he also fetch my 2 dear cum..^^

we 4 went to DP..and limteh at shi lin..then..there was a uncle who din watch our car and drove in front of us..if Marvin din manage to stop the car, i tin the uncle will injured..as he should drive behind us..not in front..and he kept on scolding..scolding at behind..but we din bother him..and i 4gt to see whether the car gt problem o nt..When we arrived DP, we found out that 4 of us hvn watch AVATAR..so we brought the 2.50pm ticket..nice movie..but i had watched the 1 without 3D..nice man..i love it..if compare with 2012 and the princess and the frog..i prefer this..but these 3 movies are totally different themes..^^..

Then, Marvin sent me bek ixora..if cs and zh din nt hav tution tonight..maybe 4 of us will go to had a dinner at sushi king..we finished our movie at 5.45pm..i wan go to find tis movie and download..

this is the 1st time i sat Marvin car..we had been contacting each other via msn and phone since our last meet..which is before he and i went to mmu and sunway..aiya..din take photo today..

he is goin bek tis sat o fri..we 2 can only meet on the cumin chinese new year......

we 2 today chat a lot..and sorry for cs..haha..today din talk much with u..haha..as i hvn meet him for 6 months..^^

他就是全天下第二个纵容我的人。。每一次我有事。。他都会伸出耳朵听我sapsapsapsap。。

如果全世界的男人都背叛我。。我相信。。他，星泓和俊隆永远不会背叛我。。因为就是这三个人。。我的出气桶。。>.<

ok la..i wan continue le..nw is 2009-12-31-06-30-47am..

GOod MorninG~~

Econs Presentation..finally..

2009-12-25T16:36:00.000+08:00

i was feeling tired nw..but i feel wan blogging now..haha..^-^
wan start from where o..erm..erm..
ok la..start from ystrdy nite..after chatting with jing..i went bek almost am le..hehe..
i jus slept for 3 hours and woke up for my human, pca, eng cls..8pm..human cls..the 7-11 group, which is Ron and Ahfoong group..they had produced a good video and gt use the movie 2012 when ending..the other group le..omg..it was a silent mode video..we can just only heard the song..sienz..almost fall asleep at that time..9pm..PCA..Mr aiai..gave us a quiz today..he is such a good lecturer..help us to get marks for the quiz..^-^..10.30am..we were released..they went to EP eat..while i..i went bek home to have an hour nap..cus i really tak boleh tahan..12pm..Eng..zZzZZzZZzz..the 3 ppl beside me..aiai, julie and angela..all very tired..cus when the time for doing exercise..they almost use it to sleep..but angela and aiai..only for some moments..and today, i discovered something..the most concentrate in our De10 members..a peng..also fall asleep today a..luckily i gt go bek slept for an hour..if not..i will be the 1st to sleep today..haha..
2 hours lecture past in very very slow slow slow motion..after cuming bek..i prepared for my 5pm Econs presentation..omg..very nervous..as tis is the 1st time tat we presented in front of so many ppl..julie, angela and i were very nervous before the presentation start..bcus we did not present in front of so many ppl during last sem..especially julie..but today she had a good presentation..better than me..and improve a lot comparing to last sem..haha..jus she was too nervous la..GOOD JOB, JULIE!!

Thank for all my team members..Chin mun, Amelia, Angela, Pei qing, Julie..

p/s: cus my hse phone line gt problem..so i update my blog today..

and

MerryX`mas..

20-12-09..still have 10 days for my 2009~~

2009-12-21T01:15:00.000+08:00

the weather..is very cool nw..i suppose shuld be memorising my econs presentation short points nw..but i dun hav the mood..as i jus finish my cookies..which is made by my dear~~
this is the 2nd time she did the baking..last time..i 4gt to take a photo on tat..
let me show u the photo..

nice??haha..my tmr high tea..hehe..
she has a high talent on baking and cooking..unlike me..but she say wan to teach me..i said : if i do the cookies, i think i might make a mess on all things..haha..so i tel someone yesterday..my husband nid to noe hw to cook, so tat he wont die of hungry..haha..
about tis few days staying at mlc..i did a lot of things bside from working on assignment..haha..
wan to start from when le..ok la..start from fri..when i went to watch the princess and the frog..the movie, i like it..the animation..omg..i like it..it is so beautiful......aiai, julie, jingwei and me..but jing wei went to watch avatar..avatar also nice..but i dun hav the chance to watch gua..nid to find sm1 help me to download..^^
jingwei drove us there..u noe wat happen..actually 4 of us nt familiar with the road..and kept on traffic jam..be4 watching the movie,aiai and julie brought a pair of hamsters..they were so cute..1 pair RM30..they brought all the things and forgt the most important things when they are goin to pay..they forgt on the hamsters` foods..hahahaha..(ltr both of them kill me as i am talkin bad on them here..)
if i could have the RM 150 hamster..i love tat 1..it feeds on apple..but........the price i hate it..and i cannt buy also...sad.....>.<.......but i feel satisfied as i still can watch on tat~~
after tat, they went to mlc centre to exchange the ticket..poor aiai, cannt exchange the ticket..bad counter uncle dun wan let her exchange..
then, i went to korean hse to hav my dinner with my lao da..luckily lao da din wait me at ixora..if not i will get shoot by her for whole night..haha..i ordered a pa jiao..they are nice..delicious..but heard that seoul garden 1 is better..lao da send me bek together with my printer..
i was very very tired..so when sat morning,jing wei asked me to hav lunch with her..haha..but i din go as i woke up at 8 am but fall asleep at 11pm until.....2pm i jus wake up..and i ate 2 packet of biscuits and my favourite rocky..and yuki asked me whether night time wan to have dinner together..and i leave jing wei alone again as i promised with yuki 1st..sorry..jingwei..
we went to the pure bar.......left handside..hehe..we were guai guai de..we 2 went to eat the tomyam 火锅和烤肉..we ate for 1 hour..haha..cus i too hungry~~cus the yuki lo..wan tried new roads..we wasted on half hour time on waiting the traffic jam and trying on new roads..
both of us really are big eaters..haha..can eat 1 hour++..we accidentally heard a man (which very niang) and a woman `s conservations..omg..i almost wan die from hearing wat they are talkin..the woman kept on talking to the phone and said: yalah..suddenly i felt sorry that i din bring u cum to eat..sorry la..ok la..we meet ltr, at where??arena a..okok....then after 10 min,she ans another phone call..hello,..is u a..i am eating with my frens lo..u all going to pure bar a..ok a..wat time..ok..see u there....then the man asked her ltr u wan go where??arena o pure bar??she said: i wan go bek home.the man asked again: then wat bout them??
she said: ltr when i arrive home, i will sent a msg to tel them i am nt goin. (i hate tis kind of ppl..cus if we promise wan to go, we jus promising ppl la..if not, jus say i consider o straight deny la..)
we had a full dinner..^-^..and had a `brother` talk..hehe..
wat bout my today??sunday..the weather is very cool..it is a nice weather for sleeping..
i slept until 8.30 am today..maybe earlier..cus i also duno wat time i woke up..jus i noe..i woke up very earlier today..i miss my breakfast on sun morning..duno wat my mum ate for today..zhuikuih??chakuih??caitaokuih??da di`s mee??you zha kuih??i miss tat..but today i dun felt lik to hav my breakfast..maybe ystdy nite ate too many..until today morning still not hungry..after that, i kept on busying with the econs presentation..very tired..julie looked lik noe wat i was talkin bout but also looked lik duno..but i tin her eq + iq so high..i tin she undstnd wat i was talkin de la..after julie turned to angela..another 1 who is half noe half duno..and i had been busying on tis econs until almost 3pm when my lao da called : hav u eat ur lunch??
i said: haven..why??u wan fetch me out??[actually if i said i hvn eat since i wake up until nw, maybe my ear will b sufferring..as high peak of sound will pass thro them..]
then, we went out to have my lunch..erm..breakfast..erm..it shuld b dinner time la..chin chai la..at SR..
i had a lot of foods..i tin u all will be shocked as i ate so many food..i had a bowl of laksa..a blended expresso, 2 small piece of fish and chips from lao da..1/5 of expresso cheese cake, a banana split..altot i dun eat banana..such a big eater..omg..fat le la...........
lao da, i told u le lo..if he see me, sure say i look similar with my mother..hehe..hehe..
i met with someone special today..as i not very lik him..but my sixth sense ringing on him..
1st impression: ok lo..not bad..jus if he can speak slower, maybe ppl lik me who had a heavy ear will not b suffering so much..
oo..i had talked too much..until i 4gt the time..altot i still gt a lot to say..

给一个人：
感情谁也控制不到。。或许现在迷茫，但下一秒就会恢复之前的自己，不要封闭爱情的道路，因为封闭了，你就会犹豫不决，当你不封闭它时，你就会发现其实是有得选择，还有退路。。并不一定有感觉就要喜欢，喜欢就要爱上，爱上就要在一起，在一起就要永久的承诺，如果是这样，那就没有分手，诚挚的爱，红颜知己。。
相爱并不一定要拥有，但不想爱，肯定没有拥有。。
每一段结束的感情都有不一样的结束方式。。
但。。重点是你自己要学会从里面学会，在改变成为不一样的自己，让自己在下一段感情知道自己的问题。。

感情~~不等于~~性格或人格或资格。。
爱情是数学，大家都是相等的一。。。。（改次在讲）
你和他是一加一。。你的感情里该只有你和他。。
而不是这些个局外的东西。。这些可以用时间来改变。。所以不要想那么多。。顺起自然。。

*p/s: next time jus attact the photo..tired le..gudnitez~~

forgt to blog on smthing jus nw..

2009-12-17T01:04:00.000+08:00

i gt my lucky no. for my blog..7 followers..

hehe..y i am so happy..cus it means still gt ppl wan to follow my blog~~

my next target..17 followers..but i tin..i nid another 1 o 2 years..maybe..haha..

i am very happy..and touched..haha..tq for the 7 ppl~~

blogging can let me share on my life..and memorise all the happy and unhappy..bcus i gt short memory..so, i will easily forgt smtg..

what am i busy with??

2009-12-16T20:29:00.000+08:00

tis few days..i am busy with my assignment..nid to be busy until my 3 presentation finish..lol..
i was so envy with those ppl who is in a realtionship..but..i still think single better..o `ai mei`..
cus sometimes..i tin if i am in a relationship..my bf sure suffer a lot..haha..
today..finally finish my econs..omg..yesterday work so late..O-O..u see..panda eyes..my panda eyes~~
keep on raining here..but muar is totally different..they said very hot..
i like the feel so much..bcus i was once a ppl who lik to study..can b say as crazy..haha..so i always work non-stop..but i will stop my way when the rain start falling..

i had finished my gong xin ji recently..and i wan to watch the movie, The princess and the frog very much..but i haven finished my presentation..this weekend i wll b staying at here..to memorise my presentation..nervous la..1st time since i nid to present in front of so many ppl..last sem i was very lucky as i jus present in front of 10 ppl include myself..tis time i nid to present in front of 50++ ppl and using the mic..omg..nervous..>.<

bside tat, i will be absent again for my Fraternity Gp gathering again..this is the 3rd time i miss since last last last last....duno hw many last months edy..even my 2 dear wan to meet me also nid to fix the time..haha
sorry la..i myself also duno busy with wat..normally, fri and sat nite will be family gathering..then sun..i will pack my things..as i always arrived muar on fri evening..then leave sat afternoon..erm..sometimes i sleep late,so the time past flies..haha..
p/s: sorry a..i cannt attend again..yeeying~~happy bufday~~

yaya..almost forgt..tis is the present tat Angela brought bek from bangkok~~

cute??

there is a word `Thailand` on the head~~

she had brought a tissue beg..

Fall for you..

2009-12-13T22:38:00.000+08:00

wondering why i lik this song so much??
actually..i heard this song accidentally..from aiai..i heard this song accidentally..
and after that, in angela`s audition, i heard again..

i duno why i like this song lyrics..maybe..maybe..
tis time..in the end,i still chose to give up..bcus..i am a corward..and
i duwan to make him feel i am a burden to him..
he is the only guy i gt the feel after so much things happen..but in the end..i still choose to give up..
as i am not so ready to the love..and the most important tin is i duno hw he feel towards me..

..i duno why..i gt a feeling which is similar before..
i also duno why tis kind of feeling appear again..i afraid..cus tis feeling will make me feel rash..i duno why i gt special feel on tis guy..he is normal..normal lik every guy..

7 years ago..i met 2 different stories tat change my life~

they..affect me a lot..i could jus gt good feel towards a man, but those feeling..i noe it wont last for a long time..except for the guy i really wan to date..

1st..a perfect man in all kinds of aspect..except the temper..but still lose to me if i lose my temper..haha..cus i had a bad temper..althought at last, we gave up each other, but we cherished on the memories tat we shared together..2nd..mature,consideration,gentleman.......but both of us...just can be say..we are from different world..we are totally different world..my love to him is a burden....

tis is the 1st time i write bout my love..my story..

Because of tonite..i will fall for you..but at the same time, i also give up on you~~

Here the lyrics of..Fall For You..

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you

Over again

Don't make me change my mind

Or I wont live to see another day

I swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you

Over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I wont live to see another day

I swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Your impossible to find

今天，10-12-09。。星期四

2009-12-11T00:06:00.001+08:00

不知道是什么风，今天大家讲广东话。。哈哈。。结果咧？？爱爱讲到比较像客家话多一点。。然后。。julie也很努力在讲。。和我一样。。很慢。。哈哈。。今天一整天好累啊。。回来冲凉好后。。累到连睡着了都不知道。。害蔡嘉洋问我几点吃饭。。我都不知道。。因为已经睡死了。。今天在家的时间到现在还没超过5 个小时。。只知道今天很累。。可怜的蔡嘉洋。。吃晚餐越来越迟。。刚才8 点才吃。。原本我在等他吃饭的。。他上课到7点。。过后。。我自己也不知道就这样睡了~~结果变他等我。。呵呵。。

今天country story换成圣诞节的。。我很喜欢~~

如果我有机会，我一定要去看雪。。白色的雪。。对我来说，代表着瞬间的冷艳。。
飘飘而落的白雪。。我就会想到我的第一本故事书。。卖火柴的小女孩，那个也是一个圣诞节的故事。。

想想再过几个星期就是圣诞节了。。大家都很忙吧~~

我应该会之前比较忙。。到那天之后就比较空闲。。先祝大家。。

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☆ ◢██◣聖誕節　˙˙˙
___▂▂█▂▂__預祝聖誕節快樂﹋ Merry X' mas

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。° 。 ° 。˚ ˛ • ˚ ˚ ˛

MERRY 。 • ˚ ˚ ˛ ˚ ˛ • •

。CHRiSTMAS 。。° 。 ° ˛ ˚ ˛

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/__ __ ＿/ ＼。˚ ˚ ˛ ˚ ˛ •˛ •˚

｜田田｜門｜ ˚ ˛ ˚ ˛ •

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year ˚ ˚

最近会忙于剩下的assignment，所以可能会少update。。

还有。。那些考试的。。加油^^

至于那些在麻坡的朋友注意。。自动排时间出来。。还有。。我圣诞节有回。。不要讲我没有排时间。。不过要等25日过后。。呵呵。。

人家别人是时间满满，全部是约会。。我是时间满满都是功课。。好像做不完这样的。。还有两个presentation。。累。叫一个有口吃的人去presentation。。omg。。天啊~~

09-12-09。。考完试后。。

2009-12-09T01:29:00.000+08:00

今天。。我ponteng。。没去上英文课。。因为。。我不想上。。因为我不喜欢一个人的感觉。。今晚。。我考了我的human。。完蛋。。这就是平时不烧香，临时抱佛脚。。（不过，我平时烧香只不过求平安，好像很少为了学业叻。。）

我读了3次。。可是我还是漏掉许多。。失败。。

此时此刻，我相信很多人都已经睡着了。。只是我有点说不出口的东西想在这里讲。。

看此部落格者，请不要宣扬，因为以下我想讲的事务或许会影响大家的感情，不过我想了很久，我还是得说。。

这几天我想了很多。。

请原谅我这几天不想大大声笑的理由。。

那天，星期三，moral课取消后，当你们在玩的时候，你们问我为什么昨天离你们那么远？？我不敢回答你们。。

一：我怕被画。。

二：我想起我家的亡者。。我在这里笑。。而家里正在办丧。。

因为我真的心情不好。。或许我笑很敷衍，因为没有一个人。。家里有人去世而哈哈大笑。。或许以后我可以。。但是现在。。不可以。。因为每当我笑，我就想起我的遗憾。。或许你会觉得我是古董或感情种子也好，但这是我认为我该做的。。
过后。。我发现。。其实，不是只有我。。大家最近已经越离越远了。。

我不知道自己几时脱队。。只是我发现。。我真的离你们越来越远。。为什么？？是我的问题还是大家的问题？？我不懂。。我真的不懂。。

或许我真的是那么惹人厌，但是有时，真的是无心的。。我有错，但是我没有想到我竟然错到那样。。对不起。。对于大家。。我只能说“对不起”。。

今晚，我为我自己做了一个决定，如果没有办法，我会用我认为最极端的方法。。

我这个人。。很固执（这是一致认同的）因为我认为朋友只有诚恳，背叛。。和信任。。

至于感情，空窗很久了，因为。。我一直在找着。。

自从我的第二次世界大战后，我想通了很多，也领悟了不少。。
一段感情要的是两者。。两者的信任，两者的专一，两者的相爱。。两者。。

或许我遇到很多很好的人，但我却与两个人。。擦肩而过。。

而今。。我想我还是会选择擦肩而过。。因为我害怕一旦陷入，等到最后还是等不到自己想要的结果时。。我会无法抽离。。所以我选择当缩头乌龟。。躲回自己的壳里。。

不过，谢谢两个愿当捍卫队的朋友，我还是选择放走。。哈哈~~不管怎样。。谢谢你们。。

就这样。。各位晚安。。我觉得说出来后。。很轻松。。

why u so kelian~~

2009-12-06T23:46:00.000+08:00

the geli tin tat happen last week when eating....omg....

tis is my orange juice....

do you see something inside the drink??

i tin mostly...nobody will saw that..cus a bit blur..smtg lik a black dot..

haha..wan to hav a close look??

clear with that??still not clear??let us have a closer look........

it was a died fly which commit suiside..nono..was died accidentally when flying..

and it harmed me to waste my RM1..as i only drink half of it....T.T

actually it was died in my drink surface..

but ky.....accidentally make it sucked in the straw..as he want to make the died fly not flow on the surface..